Monday, August 11, 2008
firstly todae..im very bored..dhenn i started reflecting bout things dat hav happen to my lyfe..frenships,family n love lyfe..suddenly i juz missed all my fwens seyy..both new n old fwens..if oni i could list out every bodys name..but its juz too many..old buddy: farah,syafiqah.asiqah.shaiful,irwan,salihin,asiqah,siti,zahariah,adila,su'aidah,khairul dzakirin,khairul nashirin,sabri,elly dianni,emma rahayu, zulfikar,andy,nizar,wirul,hafiz,ramadhan,misran,shofiyah,taufiq,nasri,helmi,husaidi,firdaus n many more uhh.new buddy: ikhlas,eeda,zairul,sonia,fidah,fadiana,mashita,natasha yana.natasha aziz,kamariya,adelina,zila,syafiqah,shahirah,ashwiny,fatin,racheal ann,amanda,angeldyn,basically,evrybody tat i noe n anibody dat noes me..if i left out somebody's name..pls dun be angry coz i dun hav a perfect memory.. next..my family..my family has change now..theres no more communication wit my dad coz he really didnt care for me..dhenn my mum kept on nagging n nagging even if i didnt do anitink wrong..my bro is juz pissing me off..juz now my bro go n take my things n play..dhenn i ask him whose is dat but i oreadi noe dat its mine uhh..dhenn he juz make tat guilty face..dhenn my mum start scolding me n she sae nemindd uhh if my bro wan to play or wat..dhenn she continue nagging...i was lyk wat uh..mepek la sia..i wasnt shouting at him..i was juz asking him softly..my sis now oso change..she had become rude n she start not to care bout me animore n i juz cant trust her ani longer coz recently she had became my mum's spy..shit uhh.. lastly my love lyfe..it was such a pain..at first things were juz as sweet as honey..tiada ku sangka sejak detik itu kau membika pintu kamar dihatiku. cinta yg terhampar satu tika dulu bersinar kembali..pandainya dikau mencuri hatiku dengan kejujuran dan tingkah lakumu..dhennn i believed evrything dat u said n give u dhe best i had..dat point i wanna be evrything ur gurls not,n im gonna giv u evry little things i've got,coz u r more then a gurls nid..so i ask u to imagine tat dhe pillow dat u cried on was my chest, n dhe tissue tat u wipe ur face with was my hand..n i kept tellin u tat u should let me love u ,let me be dhe one to give u evrything u wan n nid..but u really didnt appreciate my presence..
but after awhile..all those sweet moments turn into a bitter n sour moments..n i started to stray from love n this is how i feel..im losing grip n it's hurting me to let it go..maybe we spent so much tyme and i noe tat its no more..after all i tried to do,stay away from loving you. i'm broken hearted, i cant let u noe and i wont let it show. u wont c me cry..but pls dun worry bout me..im fine..i juz thought tat it was my tyme,but i guess not yet..evry thing was juz empty words n promises.. apa terjadi, diriku ini masih tegar..hati dilukai setelah janji ditunaikan..tiap kali ku fikir tiada guna bersedih..kawan-kawan katakan buang masa ku cintai dirimu..tiada langsung yg benar dari ungkapan bibirmu..mengapa harus ku bercinta? kenapa ku percaya? kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan? kenapa harus ku dikecewakan setiap kali bercinta? takkan ku lupa semua kerana ia tetap segar dalam ingatan..tetapi semuanya hanya tinggal kenangan.. k luhh..till dhenn.. Astala Vista! Sayonara!Taiikkeee KaaiiresssS D:haishh...
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥