w0oh0o..im excited for tomorow even though im not goin to celebrate it lyk dhe past yrs..early in dhe mornin,mummeh ask me to clean dhe house..dhenn mummeh ask to go to meera's house to take dhe kuih's..coz mak(meera's mum) got order some for us....i went to her hous wit haziq(younger bro)..so yea...when i reach dere,mak ask me if i wana cut my hair or not as my hair is already damn long n thick..hehehe..tot of keeping it long uhhh...but dhenn i say i juz follow them first to northpoint as mak wan to do her eyebrow,meera wanna make her hair thin...so when reach there oredi..i decided to cut my hair..dhenn mak ask meera to cut her fringe..i oso cut sia..but actualli i cut on my own in dhe mornin..dhenn i realise dat it was slunted..hehe..so i decided to bring more hair down n cut it...dhennn washhh..n last but not least,make my hair straight..wo0ho0..dat was dhe best one..n it looks awwwshem..hehe..but my dad kept laughing after lookin at my hair n my fringe lyk dat..dhenn mummeh say my hair lyk robot..wat seyyyy..i loike it okehhh..niways...TANX FOR DHE HAIR EYH MAK!! SAYENGGG MAK!! becoz of me,mak tak jadi buat rambut..haishh..felt so bad after dat...takpe la..later raye,i will ask for forgiveness..hehehehe..so yea...wan to go geylang but lazy..juz watch teevee uhh....kk..gtg now...wana put all dhe kuihs in dhe jar..heheh..wo0ho0!!luv u all ahkk...
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
10:53 PM
i had maths n science N level paper juz now..it was okehh uhhh..not dat hard...nyehehe..kk..enough bout papers okehhh...now i've lost my ic sia..so i brought my passport instead..paiseh sia..dhe pict was taken whenn i was in primary 5..hehehe..apeseyyy..so yeahhh..after skool,me,ash n sonia went to slack at compasspoint..i juz cant understand some ppl sia..they r juz so damn fuckin irritating..haiyoooo...dhenn after dat sent ash to dhe lrt station..dhenn walk sonia to dhe bustop dhenn i walk back home alone..i miss eeda la seyyy!! y muz she hav chicken pox?? so after break-fast i decided to mit her under her block..wat sia..i cant even sit near her...dhenn i cannot get my hug nimore...i mishh her hug!! i nid someone to hug meeee!! hehehe..im not a lesbian okehh..but i juz lurve it whenn she hug me...aisha lurvessss huggiesss!! nyehehehe..dhenn eeda face was lyk..omg..alot of red spots..but she put cream over it and it was kinda funny uhh...she can still lepak under her block wif her face lyk dat sia...if it was me,i wont even go out of my house...and now..im here writing tis post n my body is damn itchy sia..esp at dhe back..wtf!! i dun wan to hav chicken pox la seyy!! i wan to go jakarta! hehehe..i cant wait any longer!! i miss my fatehah tooo!! aiya..easy to sayy..i mishhh evrybody uhhhh...okehhh...dat s all...gdnyteezz! tc aites!"hunney! i'll wait for euu..take it nice n slow aitesss...never love someone back A.S.A.P......lurve yaa!!"ps.wateva happens,u r still AWWWshemm hunney(:
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
9:42 PM
today im feelin' better...someone cheer me up yesterdae nite..n ya..fatehah..u too..i onli slept after my pre-dawn meal..hav been sms-ing dat someone all nite long..hehehz...but dhenn got one part,dhe fon fell off from my bed n i cant find it...hahahas..after one hr dhenn i cant find..wat sia...niways u...i really enjoy talkin to u...lalalala~
looking at dhe star in dhe sky at night is damn wonderful..from my room window..i can only see one star..but its a bright n beautiful one..haishhh...while sms-ing my awwwshem fren n lookin at the star...it really made my day man...dhe smile came backk..wo0ho0..i loike...early in dhe mornin,mummeh wake me up n ask me to do dhe housework..she ask me to do alot of things sia..but dhenn i say to her dat i nid to study for my exam tomorow..hheehe..btw,im not..so she say ok n she oni ask me to bring down dhe curtain..hehe..simple job man..i can see dat mummeh is more understanding after now..i guess she is worried bout me as i get moody these days..so yea...i guess dats it n i'm scared for my tomorow paper sia..i guess im okeh wit my biology,n 50/50 bout my math..dhe worst is physics mann..its damn hard for me...haiyayaii..."euu will now n always be dhe star of my heart:)"
so..yeahh..taikke kaiiree people(:
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
1:05 PM
life have been..erm...i dunno uhh..so yea..usually i wont follow my dad to tanjung pinang..but this time round..i guess,its better for me to follow..dad n mummeh keep askin y my face look lyk i've got alot of probs n they keep askin,izzit about ur guy? i was lyk..no....dhenn walk off..haishh..i tot..its gonna be wad i expected but yea..things will not always be lyk wad we expect..wateva it is..i juz gonna accept it..but its goin to take a long tyme..when we reach there..i ask dad if i can have my own room instead of sharing wit them as usual..mummeh was lyk scolding me n all uhh..but i juz hav to..i juz need to be alone..3 daysss mann..i cant sleep..even some parts suppose to be fun,i didnt feel dhe 'full' fun..for dhe first tyme in my lyfe i had my own hotel room..n dhe first nite,dad bought some firecrackers n fireworks. tis tyme round,i can c dat dad cares for me alot..he ask me first if i wan anitink but as usual i juz look down n walk away..for dhe first tyme..dad hug me..for dhe first tyme i cried in his arms..dad kept askin y i cry..but i juz couldnt find dhe reason y..its juz dat..i felt terribly sad..juz damn sad...on dhe first nite,we played all dhe firecrackers n fireworks..there is tis haunted house beside dhe place we were playing..i kept hearing a woman call my name n i saw a woman i white lookin at me..i juz smile n continue lookin at my dad lighting dhe fire crackers....of coz im scared but all dhe probs in my mind juz fight away all dhe fears..at nite..its tyme to sleep..so yea..i get back to my room..mummeh call me n told me to lock dhe doors,on dhe lights n tv even if im sleeping..crap uh..n ya..she ask me not to go out of my room..dhe pre-dawn meal over there is at 3am..n dat point of tyme is at 1am..i get out of my room n walk around dhe hotel..mummeh is goin to kill me if she noe bout tis..i walk n walk n saw dhe woman in white again..while i was walkin,tears juz run down my face,seriously dunno for wat..i walk as slowly as possible..around 2.15..i go up to my room n sit on dhe balcony..suddenly i cried again..haishh...dad can hear my voice from dhe next room. he quickly ask me to open my door..when i open,i hug him..as tightly as possible..mann..i cried even more sia...dad called my sis to sleep wit me..so yea...sis was wit me n by dhe tyme,it 3am oreadi..so i called mummeh n my younger siblings to go down n hav our pre-dawn meal..dhe meal was okeh uhhh..its juz lyk we were havin a breakfast..but no cold water..im lazy to blog about wad happen on dhe second day uhh..but on dhe second day,i called my mummeh's room for pre-dawn meal,nobody answered..so i go down to dhe restaurant n eat on my own..suddenly,there is tis damn handsome guy stand infront of me. he ask if he can join me..i was lyk.."sure.." n he sit..he juz stare at me sia..i scared la seyy..he ask me if im ok..dhenn i juz nod my head..he say he can see dat ive got alot of troubles..n i tend to be very secretive..i juz continue eating wifout sayin anitink..so its totally silence coz there is only me n him in dhe restaurant..i dunno where he is from..so i ask his name..erm..i guess his name is...shit..i cant remember..but dhe name is damn nice..but long uhh..dhe he put out his hand n wan to shake my hand uhh..i was juz about to tell him my name but before i could do dat,he was,"n ya..ur name is aisha ryte??" i was lyk...-blank-..how did he noe..he continue,"i noe evrytink bout u..dun worry..i noe all ur probs..juz remember dat there will always be someone by ur side..even if u cant see them,they r always there..they noe dat sometimes u juz wanna cry..but u juz couldnt..n u juz keep in ur heart,but u noe..now u cry wifout reason ryte? this is wad happens..all ur cries dat suppose to be out before..juz oni came out now.." i was.....--seriously blank-- hu dhe hell is tis guy sia.. a damn good looking one..ive nvr seen a person lyk hym before sia..i didnt even response to hym..after finish evrytink,i juz say gdbye to him n went up...but when i was walking up dhe stairs, i turn back n look at him..n i saw dat he's not there.. ?????? my heart was beating damn fast uhh..in dhe mornin,i didnt tell anione anitink..i didnt even say dat i went down to have my meal...so yeahh..do some shopping n reached home arond 7pm...so im preety tired uhh..but in my mind,i kept askin hu is dat hot looking guy sia...haishh..nobody noes...dats all....im beginning a new lyfe mannn...
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
8:02 PM
haishh..now seriously i wana end evrytink..i've been thinking bout it all night long n i juz cant get to sleep..no use lurving someone who lurve someone else..ive nvr know bout it before,therefore i juz love him with all my heart...but now,i've got to stop lurving him..i noe dat my cuzziez r damn preety..unlike me..i follow my mum side..sumtymes i'm juz curious why i didnt hav my dad's look..im a mix but didnt look lyk one..but its ok..if dhe person truely lurve me,he should lurve me for who i am and not for dhe looks. i admit dat i'm ugly fugly..but nevertheless,im lucky enough dat i was not born as a retarded gurl..haishh...seriously now,i had no love for anibody..all these happen from yesterdae..dun ask me wad happen..coz i juz wan to forget evrytink..forget bout love..forget bout dhe thoughts of lurving him..easy to say,anything bout him..but i'll pray for him..n hope he will be happy wif hueva he choose..dats all..maybe im goin to follow my dad to tanjung pinang to release some stress today..idk..its not confirm..haishh...tc..bye...
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
1:18 PM
first of all...today is dhe last day of skool..so yeahh..w0oh0o.but dhenn still got 'N' level paper okehh...so..early in dhe morning we had exam paraliturgy..its actually a prayer service uhh...its as usual..boring...dhenn got geog uhhh...after dat free period...dhenn it was tyme to go to dhe hall coz we had prayers for dhe graduation classes..for dhe 4NT, 4EXP n 5NA...so yeahh..prayers again..n i fall asleep in dhe middle of dhe prayer..hehes..dhenn sang dhe last hymm..hahas...dhe last part was quite fun n touching uh..people hug each other all over dhe place..dhenn cry la wat la...hahas...went back home ryte after dat..dhenn as usuall i will go on9 after changing n bathing...mummeh say she's goin geylang wit bik lin n nana...i told her dat i dun wan to follow..after a few hours,bik lin called me n ask me to go to geylang..walauuuu...haishhh...she force me la seyy...n u noe wat..go geylang juz to see if she suits wit her baju kurung or not..shit siaaaa...dhenn i was bad mood uhh...while was walking...mummeh say she wan to buy some clothes for my cuzzie n australia AGAIN! dhenn it take her more dhenn 30 mins in dhe shop sia...me n bik lin was lyk...argh..dunno wat to say uhh...suddenly there is tis 1 RTM from malaysia crew,host n camera came near me. i was lyk... -blank- hahahas..tis bik lin runaway oreadi..wat sia..dhenn dhe host ask me bout hari raya thingy n about dhe economy..i was -blank- again..dhenn on dat point of tyme,mummeh was juz buzy wit dhe clothes n was not aware bout dhe camera all...dhenn i told dat person,"why dont u go to my mummeh. i really donno wat to say. serious." dhenn she say ok and ask which one is my mummeh..so i point to her la..dhenn dhe host quickly go to mummeh with dhe camera. n mummeh face was lyk -shock- hahaha...funny sia..but i noe my mummeh..she will confirm accept uhh..so yeahh...she was filmed..hahahs..funny sia her face. hahahha..i sabo herr..nyehehehe..so yeahh...since 4.45 in dhe afternoon until 10.45 at night sia...by dat tyme,im damn tired la seyy...haishhh..so yea...here i am now...tomorow muz go bik lin hous coz she wanna check out dhe new sengkang gym n at night muz go skool somore..haiyayayaii....k luhh..till dhenn...taikke kaiirree aite u ppl..im hungry sia now...juz now oni drink bandung..havent eat...nyeheheh..so..bubbye!LURVE EUU HUNNEY!!(:
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
11:05 PM
yeah..yesterdae nite was gerek...hahass..talk to hunney is always dhe best part of my lyfe..hehehe...so yea..today,as usual..i go to skool..was so damn sleepy uhh...dhenn eeda juz cant stop makin me laughin my ass out..hahaahaaa...aper pegang2 uhh..puase taww...she was juz damn cheeky uhh juz now..during recess tyme,as usual,we sit in dhe library..ryte under dhe freezing cold air-con..hehes..dhenn we take some books n look at dhe picts onni..guess wat book...hehehehe..goshh..seriously,we r juz sooooo sick sia...puase2 bley tengok bende tak senonoh..ish ish ishh..so yea..dhenn when skool ends,i straight away rush to rivervale mall to buy for someone sumtink coz i promise him dat i will buy for him today..so yea...hahas..now my money is $oooooo...hAhahas..heck care la..lallalala~n ya..later at night i nid to go to skool sia..got night class...peh leceh..dhe class finish at 9pm..me n eeda planned to study maths later in skool...she ask me to buy bubble tea first..so yea..i dunno if i gonna buy it or not coz i got no more money left...argh..nemind uhh..can ask grandma..heheh..dat if she let me uhh...haven tell mummy bout today nite's class....haishh..tellin her ryte after tis ..so yeahh..till here...taikkee kaiireee(: "I don't care if you don't love me like I love you,I don't care if you find this at all stupid..I don't care if you laugh at me,I don't care if you hate me for tellin you evrytink, as I just wanted you to know dat i love you more dhenn anitink..n i can sacrifice anitink juz for you hunney..(:"
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
3:38 PM
----its dedicated juz for dat someone---i love him.he has no idea.i want to tell him.but its so hard.i look at his picts all dhe time.juz to see his smile n face.i dream of dhe time i would spend with him.i wish i could see him often.but i scared dat i would be rejected.i felt so good after lookin at his picts..but deep in side,i noe dat he is not feelin dhe same.i wanna him to open up his eyes..and look for dhe gurl hu loves him dhe most..dhe girl hu needs him so bad..dhe girl hu cares and dhe girl hu will always be there for him..i want so much to be..more than juz his 'friend'..i wishes he love me..finally he noes dat i love him..but he doesn't noe evrytink..he doesn't noe bout how strongly i feels for him..bout how dhe mentions of his name lights up my face.bout how i tink im not good enough for him.and dat all i wan is to be wit him..but dhenn he looks like he didn't seems to care..n i felt so sad..i tink, "why cant he love me back?""wats rong wit me?"all i need is for u to lead the way..coz i want so bad to be able to spend time wit u..i noe im not perfect..n i noe i will never be dhe one in ur heart..but,gimme a chance..coz i'll always be there for u..even if u make me cry..even if u break my heart..i still love uu.i juz want some love back..i wan u to be there for me too..~~its for euu hunney...haishh..~~ive got no mood to ryte animore..so till dhenn..taikke kairee..haishh....
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
4:54 PM
i cant say go,taio cruz(UH OH, UH OH, UH OH, UH OH, UH OH)
Sometimes when we fight, I think maybe I
Should just let you leave and push you out of my life
But I don't decide, cause I know that I
Just can't survive without you
And I know inside I never let you go cause I'm sure your the one
Even through the rain it's clear, your the one I want
And no matter how we fuss and fight girl, you should always know
I just can't stop loving you
[CHORUS:]
That's why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
Why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
Why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
Why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
That's why I can't say go
(UH OH, UH OH)
I said that's why I can't say go
(UH OH, UH OH, UH OH)
Baby I've tried, to tell you goodbye
One look from your eyes and those dum toughts say goodbye
It's foolish to try, when I know that I
I just can't survive without you
And I know inside I never let you go cause I'm sure your the one
Even through the rain it's clear that your the one I want
And no matter how we fuss and fight, girl you should always know
I just can't stop lovin you..
im bored........
tc ppl....
haish..
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
5:30 PM
finally!! ITS MY BURFDAE!!hahahs..okehh..tis yr gerek uhh..tanx eyh evrybody for dhe wishes..n tanx eyhh to dat someone hu wish me on 12am..hehe..really appreciate it mann..early in dhe morning already,i cry..mummeh luhh..she sooo touching la seyy..haishh..dhenn at skool ppl all wish me uhh..but dhenn,dat mickey mouse mother-in-law strike again..i juz kept quiet uh..she tink i scared of her..gy mamposs uuhh..she wan to call her gang,go call uhh..dhenn mummeh cook spagetti today..me cook 'ayam masak merah'..n ya..mummeh buy for me a cake from swensens..yummy!hehes...so yea..to shita,dun be sad aites..it all happens for a reason..relax..i will always pray for u lil sis(:to those hu gave me present..tankiew very much..really appreciate it...except for my bro uhh..he gimme a hello kitty lamp seyy.haishh..nemindd uhh..tanx btw..hahahs k uhh people...take caresss aites!lurve all of u!bubbye!!"you cant imagine how you set my heart on flame..
you're lovable n shweet..
you inspire n impress me..
so, that's why i love you...."
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
8:34 PM
my 'dearest' nash ask me to do tis...sory ehk nash..coz i take such a long tyme to do..so yea..hehehe...1 ) Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket ?- Canada..
2 ) What's your favourite thing to do ?- talkin to him n spending tyme wit frens..
3 ) Do you think money can buy happiness ?-Nope,not at all..
4 ) If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be ?-i wan to hav my handphone back!! n psp please....
5 ) Things you can't live without :-my darlingss in skool n aniwhere luhh..
6 ) What are you afraid to lose ?-dhe people hu r precious to me
7 ) If you win $1 million dollars, what would you do ?-Go on a cruise first..dhenn go around dhe world..hahas..lyk real...
8 ) What do you dream of doing in the future ?-dunno uh..chef or malay teacher..hahahhas
9 ) List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey:-lovable-always there for me.-shweet(:
10 ) What makes you happy ?-talking to him..spending tyme wit my loved ones luhh seyy..
11 ) What type of person do you hate the most ?-backstabbers n hypocrites...n ya..bitchess!!
12 ) If you have a super power , what would it be ?-make dhe world at peace n get wat i dream for all tis while...hehehe
13 ) Would you go for happiness or money ?-Happiness. lyk duhhh..
14 ) Who do you think is the most important people in your life ?-erm....my frens n beloved cuzzies(:
15 ) If you have a boyf, would you die for him ?-nope..duhh..maybe he is juz not dhe ryte one for me..
16 ) Who's the last person who hugged you ?-my gurlfren,eeda(:
17 ) What is the one thing you want to do badly right now ?-tok to him now!!!!
18 ) Who are you close to ?-my 'preetiest n belo' cuzzie,meera(: ahahahas
19 ) Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him ?-sumtymes..dunno uhh...
20 ) If you could do one thing all over again what would it be ?-i would lyk to be a better person n concentrate on my studies since im young.
21 ) 3 things that scares you:-GOD-losing my loved him-losing my loved onesssss
22 ) 3 things that you like/love the most:-my precious cuzzie-my wonderful frenzzz-my lappy(:
23 ) 3 important things in my room:-pillow-fan-n of coz,bed
24 ) 7 people to do this questionnaire :-Fatehah-shahirah-shasha-sonia[if u wanna do]-nurie-halimah-Anyone............yeay!! tomorow my bdae!!
tanx for those advance bdae wishes eyhh..
really appreciate it! lurb euu guys la seyy...(:
i wann uu la seyyy!!!
hehess:)
taikeee kaairreee:))
love,
-aisha-
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
8:26 PM
today im damn angry..i dunno y uhh..i was lyk bad mood wit evryone uhh...dhenn during assembly got tis one gurl name patricia..she is black uhh..no offence uhhh...she was tryin to be funny uhh..she tie her hair into two buns n it was way too high..dhenn there was me,fadiana, tasha n eeda..i dunno y ppl must scared with normal tech gurlss uhh..fadee was tryin to cheer me up uhh...so it all started..tis patricia is wit one chinese gurl..not sure wats her name uhh..but she was a 'gangster' uhh..wateva la seyy..tink i scared izzit....fadee: eyh..u all see patricia's hair..lyk mickey mouse mother-in-law sia..(but dat tyme..dat patricia didnt hear..)me: hahas..wateva la seyy..but i tink mickey mouse mother-in-law is much more preetier...mickey's mother-in-law is at least not as black as her..(i was talkin damn loudly)(patricia turn behind..)pat:black wat black uh sia! fucker uh u!me:eyh! i was not tokin bout u la sia!!!(but actually i was..hehs)dat chinese gurl: dhenn if u not tokin bout her dhen u tokin bout hu sia..shit u noe..(talkin lyk gangster..bluekkk)me: its my mouth wat..i can tok wateva i want .u kaypo for wat?? step gangster oni..mind ur own business la seyy..!!(she was speechless after dat..)-thenn it was quiet uhh..but dhenn im still angry wit her..-eeda: saper mkn cili,dier yg terasa pedas uh..(she tokin to me..its actualli a malay idiom)me: ya!! hu eat chilli,she taste dhe spicinessla sia! (i was shouting la seyy..aisha..aisha...)pat:u can shuddup ur ass up or not uh babi!me: hahas..shuddup-ing la..pat: ya better shuddup befor i smack ur face uhhh!!me:u wanna smack my face? smack uh! u wan to kol ur gang uhh? kol uhh..as if i scared.pat:u bitch uh!!me: hahas..tanx uh! but i tink u worse dhenn me sia!pat: fuck la sia! big ass! u wanna see my black buttock izzit? u got big ass u shuddup uhh!me: hahahahahaha! yea..i got big ass so wats ur prob huh lil miss small ass??..i noe ur buttock black,no nid to say la sia..its comman sense..!so wat if i got big ass?? its not as if u r fucking me wat?? so wats ur fucking problem???pat: (stoned! she tot tat i wont fight back..but pls la seyyy..dun make me angry!!)fadee: eyhh isha..stop uhh..dun fight...later u will be in trouble wit her gang..tasha: yalah isha..stop..tat chinese gurl: kk..relax uhh pat..dun fight uh..relax..(wahh..tis gangster ask to relax luhh sia)me: fine uh! but wat her fucking problem sia! wan to attract attention oni...mickey mouse mother-in-law!! pat: eyh u cibai la sia!! u see uhh after skool!!me: k uhh..see uhh..as if ur gang is dat great..go to hell la sia..i tink my grandma's agogo gang is much better than urs la sia..so better shut ur ass up before i call my gang down n u get double dhe trouble dat u about to giv me la sia..u tink i scared of ur gang izit! podah!!-dhenn she stop..n face dhe front..hahs..wateva la seyyy.... my other frens was lyk staring at me la seyy..they nvr knew dat i can dare to fight back wit those idiots...so ppl,pls dun make me angry la sia..dhenn u will see dhe worst in me..esp tis one gurl..if we got problem,come n tok to me! stop bitching bout me to other ppl! fuck la sia!!!!! haishhh!! one problem after anotherrrrr........"Dengarkanlah aku yang setia di hatimu..Kehadiranmu sungguh berharga bagiku...Maka jangan terlalu lama engkau jauh...Jauh di pandangan mataku"
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
3:22 PM
monday againn...must start dhe day wit a maths test again..i do anihow oni sia..dhennn...lyk usual uhh..got p.e...me n eeda played badminton..it was damn fun..but dhenn got one relieve teacher ask if she can join us..of coz we say can coz we tot she is goin to play lyk a pro..but..its actually dhe other way round..suddenly me n eeda play lyk pro but dat teacher..she ahh..terrible...ishk ishk ishk...nemind uhh..juz play..dhenn it was recess...dhenn we tok about lee..FAZLEE!! dat fucking idiotic person..which happens to be my ex..okehh..wateva uhh..argh.dun wanna tok bout hym animore..after skool..me n eeda plan to play badminton add dhe badminton court near my house..so yeah.get changed n play until 5.45pm..but in dhe middle of dhe game..we all..including my younger siblings..played 'ice n water'..hahas..we fasting but still got the energy to run about lyk mad ppl..dhenn we sing n dance on dhe court as if dat is our house..okehh..stop it sia..even though i sounded happy..its realli realli diffenrent from wat i realli feel..im tinkin bout so many ppl sia..esp..him..u noe hu ahkk..if dunno..dun bother..wat sia..haishhh...dats it luhh..i'm juz so tired..juz came back from KFC for break fast..haishhhhhh.....i'm back to dhe old old aisha..dhe gurl which has a lot of problems in dhe heart but nobody can sees...haishhhhhh..."Coba lihat aku disini,
Di sini ada aku yang cinta padamu"
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
6:39 PM
"...Tak cukup cintaku
Satukan jiwa kita berdua
Jiwaku jiwamu
Terlalu jauh berbeda
Ah lupakan saja..."
haix.....
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
11:18 PM
today is another tiring day..
i thank god tat i still live my lyfe till today..
haish..
i didnt sleep at all sia yesterday night..
dunno y..
i juz cant..haishh..
dhenn early in dhe morning mummeh ask me to follow her n bik linda to geylang..
bought some clothes n of coz a pair of..shoes i guess..
tanx mummeh..i noe the price is way over ur budget but u still buy it for me..
haixx...
i dunno y i feel damn sad..
yesterday i juz kept cryin n cryin..
shit sia...
i felt so sad deep inside my heart..
no one knows..
infact..
nobody..
tanx to some people hu tried to cheer me up..
i really appreciate it man..
seriously..
u really made me smile..
but its not for long..
but at least i felt much better..
haishh..
i dunno wats into me..
wanna stay away from u..
but i juz cant coz i lurve u too much..
i dun wanna make u sad or watsoever..
haishh..
i dunno wat crap im tokin about now..
now im at bik lin's hous...
luckily i can share sumtinks wit her..
but dhenn..
not all..
dhe thing dat had always been kept to my heart is still not out yet..
tanx ehk b..tanx for bein such a great aunt..
if oni u were my mum..
ok luhh..
i'm juz toking more crap now..
gonna end now..
haishhhhhhh..
wanna end now but..
actualli i wanna tell sumtink..
argh!!
forget it..
dats all...
bye!
~sighhh~
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
6:47 PM
actualli there's notink much uhh today..
went to causeway point to break fast n finally i ate sumtink after 4 days:D
yeay..
but it actualli fries:D
hehe..hey..atleast i ate sumtink ryte...
so yeahh..as usual..go wit meera n her mum..
niways meera! happy eight month wit shark eyh:D
hahahs..dhenn after dat went to dhe bazaar n went home..
tomorow early in dhe mornin goin to geylang seyy..
mummeh uh..she go force me..
aiya...troublesome la seyy...haix..
k uhh..till dhenn...
~i really miss dhe old u..haix..
n i miss u too bad D:~
"It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does...
♥ ,
-aisha-
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
10:07 PM
yeay:D
im happie but still sick(:
for dhe first tyme in my entire lyfe i nvr eat for straight 4 days..
not becoz of diet or wat eyhh
its becoz im sick..
n i m oso sick n tired of vomiting sia..
today i didnt go to skool..
coz lyk wat i said...
im sick..
haishh..
damn bored uh..
but u noe..
after goin to my blog n chattin..
i felt so much better..
fatehah! u noe y ryte...
shhh!! sabar jer ngn haniff tu..dier kann buzy ns man..
mashita darling,dun b sad okehh..
akak now happy u sad sad plak..
juz let it be kays..
at least u confess to hym oreadi kann...
so now its all up to him..
be strong aites dikk...
i'll owaes be here for u...
asiqah! oi makcik!
hahs..u relax okeh..
klau ader jodoh tu..
ader la...
sabar jer k for ur MR A aites...
lyk wat i say..
i'll pray for u darlinn'
i miss u loads(:
nash! u, i really dunno wats goin on..
haishh..gd luck for ur n level uhh...
meera! babe...my 'preetiest' cuzzie..
hehes..u relax okehh..
hope tat things would be fine soon...
remember wat i say..
juz follow wat ur heart says..
coz dats dhe best okehh..
n ya..jgn luper..kau kene mintak maaf ngn aku raye nnti..
hahahas..bluek:P
eeda! i miss u la babe!
hahas..tk gy skola tady..
wat sia...haishh....smlm best!!
fadee! kau tu sabar ckit nk gy jakarta...
lagy 40 days babe...
aku pon tk sabar(:
hehes...1 week wifout parents!
wo0ho0~
~last but not least~
mummy!! hahs..wateva la eyhh..
i miss uu! hahas..im ok la..dun worry...
im not angry..hehe..kene jotos nnti eyhh...hahas..
tkderla..main2 jer..u noe wats dhe reason ryte..
yesterdae nite dah blng...
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im lurvin it sia!
hehe:D
i told someone tis yesterdae,
" there is none lyk u,no one else can touch my heart lyk u do..i could search for all eternity long n find,there is none lyk u..."
i really mean it..hahs..it juz came out of my mind..dunno uhh..
k luhh..till dhenn..
♥,
-aisha-
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
4:53 PM
went to pasir ris wit dorothy..hahs..eeda la.. n natasha..coz dorothy say dat she want to buuy dhe cheap nasi lemak..hahas..wateva eyh dorothy!! so yeah..dorothy,tasha n me went to dhe library to borrow some books..after a few hours there..dorothhy saw 1 hot guy reading a book juz infront of us..hahas..dorothy!!! he kept smiling at her n tis dorothy oso kept smiling at hym..stop it eyhh dorothy!! muker kau tak perlu taw takk!! hahas..miang eyhh u!! kau tu da attached..ingat sikit..bluekk..so i can take hym..:D hahahs.taknak uhh..my heart is already 'booked' by someone n nobody can eva replace hym..hehehe..cheyy..dhenn..after dat..suppose to go n play dhe swing uhh..but dhenn got some other skool mats playin..so we decided to go n see ppl fishing..it was fun though..very breezy n relaxing..tasha nie ehkk..sejak da ader matair..tk abes2 msg jer..hahahs! k k ..shhhh...nnti tasha marah...oni me noe bout tis but yea..now alot of ppl noe..hu cares larh..evry single human beings hav feelings..haishh...okeh okehh..after dat..went home wit eeda but before dat we go send tasha home first coz her hous is at pasir ris..dhenn eeda eyhh wrong...dorothy..hahas..kk..dorothy say dat she wanna send me home..so yeahh..hahas..had fun along dhe way..both of us acting lyk gays..menyampah uu! hahas..wateva la eyh..tok about some ppl..ish ish ish..puase2 pon bley mengumpat..its about all our ex guys uhh..hahas..dorothy! stop it siaaaa!!! arghh..hahahahahs!kk..stop till here uhh..lazy to type summore..hehe:D 
to SONIA DUBAY..
happy burfdae.
juz wish u had a haappy time ahead..
im sorry for not bein a good fren all tis tyme...
but really do treasure all dhe moments i spend wit u n eeda..
at changi beach..
compasspoint..
vivocity...
down town east..
n even in HOUNGANG STADIUM
watching those irritating guys play soccer..
haishh...
but tyme flies by so fast..
i wanna tok to you but i can see dat u dun need me animore..
i can see dat now u r happy wit ur own circle of frens..
so yea..
juz wanna c u happy babe..
n nothink else..
no matter wat happen..
i will still love u..
despite all those misunderstanding dat we've gone through,
i still love u..
its juz dat..
i dunno how to express it.
these few days dat i didnt tok to u,
actualli i kept tinking bout u..
when me,eeda n ashwiny go out together..
we oso kept tinkin bout u..
surely one of u will ask,
" do u all feel sumtink is missing between us?"..
i dunno sonia..
i dun wanna tok much..
i juz wanna u to do well for ur N level..
i noe u wanna go JC..
i'll pray for u dear..
even though i noe dat there is a part of u dat hate me..
i dun care..
i juz let my feelings out as i cant keep it much longer..
nemindd uhh babe...
wishin euu a happy sweet sixteen aites..
may u be blessed always....
tanx for evrytink...
i appreciate all of dat..(:
niwaes i miss my mummy loadsss!!!
i never tok to her sia yesterday..
i wait for her from 10 to 12pm but still no sign of her..
hurhur...:(
haishh..
i miss u badly sia!!!
k luhh..till dhenn...
♥,
-aisha-
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
6:10 PM
today i didnt go to skool coz im feelin worst dhenn before..
with dhe truth dat ive found out..
it makes me worst..
it hurts me alot..
u dun luv me dhe way i luv u..
n im sorry..
my love for u is nomore..
but seriously..
it realli hurts me..
im sorry..
"Wish That I Could Move On..
Can't Let Go,
It's Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You're Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be?
Everything You Had To Say..
Sent The Tears Right Down My Face..
Now I'm Trying To Escape
The Misery
Why Don't You Love MeThe Way I Loved You?
It Feels So Crazy..
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You..
If You're Gonna Hurt Me..
Then Do It Quickly..
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin..
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around..
Then, Baby, Forget About Me"
juz forget bout me..
haishh..
y muz it end up lyk this...
mummy!! i really nid u ryte now!!
u r dhe only one dat understands me..
including fatehah[:
I LOVE U TWO LOADS!!
k uhh..till dhenn...
♥,
-aisha-
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
4:41 PM
omgg!!
today i feel damn weak sia..
juz feel lyk fainting all dhe tyme...
force myself to go to skool..
haishh..
yesterdae went to bed early as i really cannot take it sia..
i didnt even eat at all..
ysterdae during break fast i juz drink plain water n dats it..
didnt even touch any food..
dhenn in dhe mornin oso dhe same..
woke up n juz drink plain water n go back to slip..
my stomach now is damn empty uhh..
but i can do no more..
i cant even see dhe food..
if i see,i will throw up..
goshh..
its dat bad..
my medicine dat dhe doctor give all finish oreadi..
haishh..
if i wanna buy more,its gonna cost a few hundred dollars..
n i dun hav dat money..
so i hav to bare wit it..
TO ADELINA ELIZA ISA ALI,
HAPPIE BURFDAE EYH BABE!
LURVE EUU!
KECOH-KECOH SLALU(:
" im into you..
no one else would do..
i wanna be the gurl of ur dreams,i wanna feel uu..
said i would be there,i would be fair,wateva i do..
boy,stick wit me..
wanna stick wit me..
juz stick wit me..
ouhh gd..
wit me(:"
GOSHH!! I MISS U DAMN BAD SIA NOW..
MISS TALKING TO U HUNNEY(:
k luhh..till dhenn..
♥,
-aisha-
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
2:46 PM
there is skool todayyy!!
n NRP start again..
doin all those exam papers again...
goshh...
okayy..
its for ur own gd okeh aisha..
coz i noe at home u wont study!!
PEMALAS NAK MAMPOS!!
heheeheee(:
early in dhe mornin oreadi got MATHS paper!!
haishh..
i've forgotten to bring dhe calculator uhh..
dhenn how am i supposed to do seyy..
for dat 2 hrs i didnt do anitink..
even 1 qn..
hehehe..
dhe qn oso very hard..
so 'bwat bodoh' jek uhh..
dhenn after dat whole 2 hrs..
rachel collected all dhe papers uh..
dhenn she started countin uhh..
before anitink happen,i go up to her n told her dat i didnt even do dhe paper..
damn!
rachel was damn shocked uhh..
i can still smile..
dhenn she go tell mr seng..
mamposs!!
dhenn at dhe end of dhe lesson,
mr seng specially as me to go n mit him after dat..
he was lyk,
"n aisha! u come n see me after this!"
my heart was beating damn fast uh..
haishh..
early in dhe mornin oreadi got scolding from a teacher..
he was lyk askin me uh,
"u mean u didnt even do 1 qn
dhenn wat hav u been doin for dat whole 2hrs?
wat is tis?
u gav me dhe excuse dat u dun hav a calculator..
i guess its juz a stupid excuse..
u noe dat ur exam coming ryte..
dhenn u got no courtesy to ask dhe teachers if they have calculator..?"
"i got ask ms teo oreadi,dhenn she sae she dun hav...."
"dhenn u nvr ask me wat.i hav it!"
i juz kept quiet uh..
actualli in my heart,
"shit uhh! u oni come 5 mins b4 dhe paper end sia!!!"
after a moment..
he say,
"ok fine! after skool u better come n mit me at staff room.
make sure u turn up okeh aisha.
N I WILL LEND U MY CALCULATOR N DO ON DHE SPOT!"
wateva la eyh..
dhenn i go off uhh...
aiya..heck care luhh..
used to it oreadi..
haishh..
dhenn ysterdae slept around 2.30am...
chattin n after dat listen to my mummy's song dhenn oni i can go to slip(:
so addicted to the song oreadi mannnn....
but i cant slip properly uhh...
coz i guess i made 'mummy' sad yesterdae..
'mummy' went offline wit a sad face...
im sorry okehh....
i didnt noe dat u read dat..
haishhh...
im juz acting lyk a fool mann..
"Now i dunno wat to do boy...it's been too long dat i'm missin u..n i really dunno wat to do boy..havin u is lyk havin dhe world...now baby come back..come back to me boy..now baby come back..havin u is lyk havin dhe world..baby boy..ur my evrytink,come back..i'm really feelin u boy,i really want u boy,i juz wanna make u mine...baby boy ur my evrytink,come back....(: "
smile okehh mummy:D
akak dun lyk u to be sad..
I LURVEEEEEE EUU SOO MUCHHH!!
n fatehah..dun worry k babe..
evrytink is gonna b alryte...
i'll owaes pray n support u..
love u uh babe...
N tO MASHITA YUSOFF..I NOE UR BDAE IS YESTERDAE SIS..
AKAK INGAT!! BUT YESTERDAE AKAK IN DHE RUSH UHH DIK..
SORRY OKEHH(:
SO,AKAK WISH U NOW OKEHH..
HAPPIE 14th BDAE TO MY DEAREST GODSIS(:
MAY SHE BE BLESSED N GET GOOD GUYS..hehes
N YA..MAY SHE REMAIN CUTE N SEXY ALWAYS:D
hehe:)
lOVE U LOADS UHH ADEKK..
AKAK SAAAAYAANGG ADEKK!!!
k luhh..till dhenn...
♥,
-aisha-
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
3:29 PM
its gonna b short for today..
n im feeling a bit better today..
with all those nice words dat fatehah told me iin dhe morning(:
tanx eyh babe..i luv u luhh(:
went out wif minah lembut n family to causeway point..
hahaas..she call herslf lembut..hehehe..
no luhh..she is meera..
my 'beloved n switest' cuzzie(:
hahaha..
its was soo funny sia juz now..
eyh meera! mate kau tak perlu okehh!!
i noe la u got such big eyes juz now..i juz feel lyk takin dhe fork n korek oni..
hahas..biase luhh..org 'keling'..
hahas..no offence eyh to indian ppl..
tis term is oni for shameerah bte amir sahib(:
im going to dig out ur eyes soon!!
hahahaaha!
dhenn saw meera's fav aunty kat toilet..
ahahaa!
oni meera,nana n me noe bout tis..
hahaa..juz cant stop laughing coz dat aunty face really 'cute' siaa..
notty seyy we all..
haishh..dhenn today i tok to hym!!
its so nice to tok to hym..
hehe(:
tanx eyh u..
n ya...
akak LOVE her mummy to dhe max!!
im soo grateful to hav a fren lyk u too(:
k luhh..till dhenn..
♥,
-aisha-
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
10:53 PM
hmm..actualli..
i had notink to write about today..
its still dhe same lyk yesterdae..
im suppose to follow mummeh to geylang today..
but seriously i had no mood..
so yeah..
i made dat 'irritated' face..
n she understand..
for once she understand me!
tanx mummeh..
haishh..
evrytink seems so dull..
i still cant find dhe reason why..
ppl tot dat im happy now..
coz im still dhe same aisha dat they noe..
dhe aisha who always put a smile on her face..
dhe aisha who always concern bout her beloved frens..
dhe aisha hu lyk to make jokes..
but they didnt noe wats within me..
dhe sadness tat i myself cant recognise..
haishhhhh!!!
whenn will all tis end??
i cant take it animore..
"All this running around,
well it’s getting me down..
Just give me a pain that I’m used to..
I’m not sure what I’m looking for anymore..
I just know that I’m harder to console..
I don’t see who I’m trying to be instead of me.."
k luhh..till dhenn..
♥,
-aisha-
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
7:48 PM
Today there's notink much uhh..
juz stay at home did notinkk..
feelinn soo low...
dunno y..
no mo0d sia..
haishhh..
there is sometink bothering me..
too many until i cant list all out.
hm..maybe it will be out so0n..
all my qns,my answers n my feelings cramped in one brain..
haishh..
i dun lyk tis kind of feelins sia..
its juz too hard express evrytink..
if u ask me wat is dhe tink tat is botherin me..
i would juz sayy,"ermm..notink uhh"..
but i noe its onli a lie..
i dunno how say it..
i dunno how to tell..
im so confuse...
really..
dere is somethink dat is bothering me but..
really..
i juz cant sae it..
too muchh troubles:(
"tryin to tell myself to move on,
to grow up and be strong,
i keep thinkin bout those better days..
so many things i wanna tell you
like how much i love you;
wishin tis pain would go away n leave me;
but it gets worst evryday...
all i can do now is just sit and dream,
reminiscing on what might have been "
k luhh..till dhenn..
Astala Vista! Sayonara!
taikee kaiireesssSS..
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
9:13 PM
