Saturday, September 27, 2008
life have been..erm...i dunno uhh..so yea..usually i wont follow my dad to tanjung pinang..but this time round..i guess,its better for me to follow..dad n mummeh keep askin y my face look lyk i've got alot of probs n they keep askin,izzit about ur guy? i was lyk..no....dhenn walk off..haishh..i tot..its gonna be wad i expected but yea..things will not always be lyk wad we expect..wateva it is..i juz gonna accept it..but its goin to take a long tyme..when we reach there..i ask dad if i can have my own room instead of sharing wit them as usual..mummeh was lyk scolding me n all uhh..but i juz hav to..i juz need to be alone..3 daysss mann..i cant sleep..even some parts suppose to be fun,i didnt feel dhe 'full' fun..for dhe first tyme in my lyfe i had my own hotel room..n dhe first nite,dad bought some firecrackers n fireworks. tis tyme round,i can c dat dad cares for me alot..he ask me first if i wan anitink but as usual i juz look down n walk away..for dhe first tyme..dad hug me..for dhe first tyme i cried in his arms..dad kept askin y i cry..but i juz couldnt find dhe reason y..its juz dat..i felt terribly sad..juz damn sad...on dhe first nite,we played all dhe firecrackers n fireworks..there is tis haunted house beside dhe place we were playing..i kept hearing a woman call my name n i saw a woman i white lookin at me..i juz smile n continue lookin at my dad lighting dhe fire crackers....of coz im scared but all dhe probs in my mind juz fight away all dhe fears..at nite..its tyme to sleep..so yea..i get back to my room..mummeh call me n told me to lock dhe doors,on dhe lights n tv even if im sleeping..crap uh..n ya..she ask me not to go out of my room..dhe pre-dawn meal over there is at 3am..n dat point of tyme is at 1am..i get out of my room n walk around dhe hotel..mummeh is goin to kill me if she noe bout tis..i walk n walk n saw dhe woman in white again..while i was walkin,tears juz run down my face,seriously dunno for wat..i walk as slowly as possible..around 2.15..i go up to my room n sit on dhe balcony..suddenly i cried again..haishh...dad can hear my voice from dhe next room. he quickly ask me to open my door..when i open,i hug him..as tightly as possible..mann..i cried even more sia...dad called my sis to sleep wit me..so yea...sis was wit me n by dhe tyme,it 3am oreadi..so i called mummeh n my younger siblings to go down n hav our pre-dawn meal..
dhe meal was okeh uhhh..its juz lyk we were havin a breakfast..but no cold water..im lazy to blog about wad happen on dhe second day uhh..but on dhe second day,i called my mummeh's room for pre-dawn meal,nobody answered..so i go down to dhe restaurant n eat on my own..suddenly,there is tis damn handsome guy stand infront of me. he ask if he can join me..i was lyk.."sure.." n he sit..he juz stare at me sia..i scared la seyy..he ask me if im ok..dhenn i juz nod my head..he say he can see dat ive got alot of troubles..n i tend to be very secretive..i juz continue eating wifout sayin anitink..so its totally silence coz there is only me n him in dhe restaurant..i dunno where he is from..so i ask his name..erm..i guess his name is...shit..i cant remember..but dhe name is damn nice..but long uhh..dhe he put out his hand n wan to shake my hand uhh..i was juz about to tell him my name but before i could do dat,he was,"n ya..ur name is aisha ryte??" i was lyk...-blank-..how did he noe..he continue,"i noe evrytink bout u..dun worry..i noe all ur probs..juz remember dat there will always be someone by ur side..even if u cant see them,they r always there..they noe dat sometimes u juz wanna cry..but u juz couldnt..n u juz keep in ur heart,but u noe..now u cry wifout reason ryte? this is wad happens..all ur cries dat suppose to be out before..juz oni came out now.." i was.....--seriously blank-- hu dhe hell is tis guy sia.. a damn good looking one..ive nvr seen a person lyk hym before sia..i didnt even response to hym..after finish evrytink,i juz say gdbye to him n went up...but when i was walking up dhe stairs, i turn back n look at him..n i saw dat he's not there.. ?????? my heart was beating damn fast uhh..in dhe mornin,i didnt tell anione anitink..i didnt even say dat i went down to have my meal...so yeahh..do some shopping n reached home arond 7pm...so im preety tired uhh..but in my mind,i kept askin hu is dat hot looking guy sia...haishh..nobody noes...dats all....im beginning a new lyfe mannn...
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥