IM SOOOOOOOOO TIRED..SERIOUS...IDK Y..HAHAS..MIT KAK AIYSAH JUZ NOW..SHALL TELL U ALL MORE TMR..HEHEZ..JUZ WANNA SAY..
"WAT HAPPEN TO UU? WHERE HAVE U BEEN?? DO U NOE DAT IM MISSING U?? GOSHHHHHHHHHH!! IF IM AT RONG..PLS DO TELL ME..IM SORRY AITES..SERIOUS..HAISHH"
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
9:42 PM
okay..today..i really dunno wad im doin...ask kambeng if he is ok or not...he says ok..but i dun tink so..i noe my kambeng kayys...haishh...was late to skool..didnt go for assembly AGAIN..dhen first period was english..went up to english class but nobody was there..dhen i waited for 15 mins..but still,they were not there..decided to go around dhe skool n search for dhe class..but cannot find..gaah!! 2 periods of eng summore..so i went to dhe library n do my malay hw..after 2 periods over..dhe next class was geog..so finally i saw them...i ask them where they were n they say dat they were in dhe comp lab..wat dhe tooot ahh...haiyooo...dhenn bla bla bla...suppose to mit adil today..but was toooo lazy...saly oso cant make so...decided not to go..later ppl tot i got sumtink on wif adil pulak...haishh...`SR dear make me smile..ILY dear...hahahas.....SR rawksss...weeeeee~ hindustan all dhe way (: n got to noe dat deq iiqa was att wif rez..last long aites babe...hmm..idk ahh...dhen at night..when mummeh came back from werk..dat tyme i was in JJ's fm...mummeh call me to come to dhe hall...skali all very tensed sey..mummeh ask me y i nvr go to skool..my form teacher called her when she was at werk juz now..wat dhe tooooooot..i say dat i go to skool la sia..i explain evrytink to them but they didnt believe me..so mummeh called my form teacher, Mrs LAU....dhen mrs lau was lyk wat dhe toooot ahh...i told her dat mark chan saw me...so yeah she say, "ok aisha..i will check wif mr mark chan ok..blablabla.." dhen abah kept on tokin..dat one la tis one la..dhen mummeh add..dhen abah again..wat dhe tooot ahhh...dhen i juz went inside dhe room back..abah say dat he gonna take my lappy...wateva..niways..i noe dat now my dad is infront of my door..seeing wat im doing..wateva la eyhh..i dun care...~niways...somebody is turning 24 today la seyyyy..hahahs..dhe LAME-O ever..abg HAN..wakakakas..FERHAN SAHIB!! happy burfdae(: weeewooooo!! present will be givin when i got my gaji =x`"speechless..haishhh"
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
10:25 PM
weeeeeeeeee~ shaa has gone nuts...didnt sleep again last night..tinkin bout all dhe gd things we have shared n felt better..i guess...no use crying..no use being sad..its juz no use..aiisha has learn to look on dhe brighter side...i juz nid sumone!! i want a hug!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ hug shiiny alot of tymes in skool today....heheh..tanx for all those hugs babe..ILY..muarckz! hehe...next...i've started to tok to my kambeng...felt better dhen ever....hehehe..weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ aiisha sort dot oredi (:
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niways..im changing fm oredi..going to share wif BS darlink, DOLLY dear n BOI ROMEO..geezz..not going to on air in my old fm nimore..sick of it..gaahh!! dah dah..nanaq spoil mood...
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so yeahh...yesterdae night..hahahahas...got tis one guy suddenly told me dat he lyk me but kip on saying sorry coz he tot i would be angry..its lyk out of a sudden..we have been frens all tis while...dhen suddenly he ask me for stead..lol..i laugh laugh n laugh sia....klakar keper...dhen i say to hym dat i wanna have any BGR stuff wif hym..cumer nak teman jer..(close fren)..dhen he say.."kk..i be dat teman" i was lyk ..huh? erm...ooookaysss..hahahahahas..haishh..fren oni eyhh...love still for one person..(:
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☆MAYBe ITS TRUe WAT PPL SAY..
IF ITS A TRUe LOVE,
NO MATTeR HOW MANY TIMES He MAKe eU CRY,
eU WILL STILL LOVe HIM
N He STILL STAY IN UR HeART☆
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
4:39 PM
i didnt go to skool today coz im superly sick becoz of yesterdae..
seriously..i cant go to sleep yesterdae night..wat deq ***** say is still lingering in my mind..i feel so terribly sad..until when must i lie to myslf n lie to ppl dat i got no feelings towards a guy?? when evrytink is cleared..why must all tis came by..
dhe first tyme u sing to me, dhe sound can nvr erase..dhe first tyme i saw u..dhe pict will nvr fade..dhe first tyme i tok to u,i will nvr forget..seriously..i love u dat much..im not forcing u or rush bout anitink...i juz want u to noe how i felt..how i tried to forget u by tryin to replace u..but u still stay FRESH in my mind...
tis is wat happens when i really truely love dat guy,it will all end with sadness..maybe i dun worth anitink to anybody...im a completely loser..i juz want u to noe dat i love u so much..u really worth a lot to me..seriously,u can nvr be replace..as i have nvr had a love for sumone this strong before..
TRUTH HURTS! TRUTH HURTS! REALLY REALLY HURTS..wad did i do rong??? why me? y am i so stupid to love u tis much?? am i a bitch? y must it be u? aisha! y muz u love hym?? y?? y not others guys?? ARGH!! TEARS! PLS STOP FLOWING! I HATE IT!
im restless..my eyes are swollen..didnt slip dhe hole day..didnt eat..got no mood for anitink..all want to do is shout out very loud..if oni im on top of dhe mountain.......if oni i could die wifout making a big sin..if only.......T_T
aisha,u sound as if u r a loser! where's dhe old aisha? dhe gurl hu doesnt care wats comin her way..n giv it her best..hey..im struggling here..i may sound childish but wad else should i do?? no one is there for me. no one. juz tis stupid lappy. if i dun have tis lappy,maybe all tis wont happen..wifout tis lappy,maybe i will not destroy ppl's frenship or should i say love..i dun wan my fren's love be destroyed juz becoz of me..im sorry guys..maybe..i should juz go away from dhe bof of ur life...maybe dats dhe best way..no more feelings..no more confusion..no more sadness..juz happiness....im acting lyk a mad woman now..ARGH!! f**K! i lurve dhem more dhen myslf..serious..if they ask me to jump down,i will jump down..im f**kin serious...i lurve dhe two of u loads..deq,tanx ferr evrytink..actually she's older dhen me but i call her deq n she call me akak..for some reasons..
n u..all dhe best..anitink,u can still find me..maybe..remember..."evrynite, wen i slp...i'm always sleeping beside u, without u knwng it...my body iz at my home, tp jasad i yg kt sblh u, tdo ngn u...even if i'm not wit u physically, i'm wit u hypertatically..."n 'i can feel wat u feel..' u,i really understand how u feel..but u r lying to me..u say dat u noe how i feel but actually, dhe truth is..u didnt no anitink.im very sory.........gdbye to all dat memories...it was nice having it...i will juz let love come n find me..no more of me finding love dat im yearning for..dat was nice...frankly,i still do love u..if u r reading tis..juz erase dat part from ur mind...haiz...
IM MISSING MY KAMBENG!!!!
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
1:08 PM
DISSAPOINT~ DATS WAT I HAVE TO SAY..
ITS TRUE DAT DHE TRUTH HURTS..REALLY HURT....ALL TIS WHILE...
GRRRR...NEMIND...
NO USE IF I FLOOD DHE HOUSE WIF MY TEARS OSO..
THERE'S NOTINK I COULD CHANGE...SERIOUS..
nobody noe how i feel right now..sad..tears rolling down n stuff..y didnt u juz tell me dhe truth? y? i understand how u feel..but do u understand mine? do you? never! haishh...notink else to add...im sorry..T_T
the loneliness by babyface
[Verse 1]
Im sitting here
Thinking bout
How im gon-na do without
You around in my life and how am
II gon' get by
I ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
You want the truth
Well girl im not alright
Feel out of place and out of time I think im gonna lose my mind
[Chorus]
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that i will never love again
[Verse 2]
I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here its clear to see
There ain't no you,
God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life
[Chorus (repeat till end)]
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time, so lonely)
Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
9:27 PM
dats dhe other pict i took wif adil..i noe it looks funnehh..but nvm..lol..
kayysss..finally im back home..im so fcukin tired siaaaa..lol..went to dira's house juz now..notink much actually...at night..went out n mit sumbody...erm..idk urhh..dhen went back to dira's place again to celebrate abg han's advance bdae...he was surprised by it..lol...dhenn went inside dhe room wif dira,meera n sheila..we tok bout stuff..n nana came by saying dat we r going home..grrr...we juz oni started on our planning for an outing..coz it has been a long tyme since we all go out together..serious..very long siaa...haishh..missed those moment..so yeahh...notink interesting happen..but yeahh..now i got stomach flu again..tis dira ahhh..haishh..my stomach is hurting now..gaaaahh!!
i hate everyday that passes and i cant see you ..but,even after a horrible day, hearing your voice seems to make everything better. after a good day,hearing your voice makes it a WONDERFUL day. thats all, juz hearing ur voice saying'i LOVE euu n i MISS euu' makes my whole world turn right side up..
gosh! i nid to go to dhe toilet again! chiow! grrr!!
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
11:25 PM
BORED!! IM SO BORED!! lol..there's notink much today..juz clean dhe house n online..dats my werk..lol.... mummeh scold me lyk hell for coming back late yesterdae..she kept on askin where i go yesterdae n wif hu..i juz kip quiet...mepek sia..its not dat i come back home after 12 midnight..grrr...so yeah..dats dhe pict i took wif adil..its a bit blurry...but i dun care urhh..lol..hmm...wat else should i say...IM BORED!!! hahas..want to go out but cannot coz wak anoi is here..leceh ahhh..haizzzz..bored....................ps. do you noe dat i love you?
i probably already told you,
but i'm going to keep saying it.
there is no lies in these words,
not one bit.
your smiles keeps me alive.
i would give you my soul for comfort,
even if it leaves me dark n cold.
n when i hold you close,
i can feel your heart beat fast,
and i tink to myslf..
i've found that 'someone' at last.
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
4:22 PM
weeeeeeeeee~today as usual..do all housework n on my lappy..dhenn after dat suppose to go out wif meera n dira but it was cancelled..dhenn suppose to go out wif bik lin but idk urhh..dun feel lyk wanna go out wif her..n some other ppl ask me out urhh..but dhenn finally i decide to go out wif adil..lols...he is so fucking annoying..make me laugh lyk mad woman..mit hym at hougang mall..menyirap sak darah aku..when i reach there,i called hym n ask where is he..dhen he told me dat he was to lazy to mit me n ask me to go home..WTF ahh..hahas..dhen i juz put down dhe fon..while walking in HM..he called me..hahas. he say sorry n he say dat he was juz playing..fcuk ah hym..hahahas..so we mit in front of dhe library..i dunno wats up wif him..kip looking at my face..lol..dhen went to kfc..n eat..hahahassss...he eyhh..funny sia..n i saw 1 fucking hot negro..tanx eyh adil for showing me dat negro..lol..dhenn adil gave me hys 'wateva' look..lol..dhen after dat..walk2..dhen adil say he wanna go to basement..so we go..n guess wat..he brought me to walk around FAIR PRICE!! baek perh kau..hahahhahahas...dhen after dat go out n went to buy pancake coz he wanted it..dhen he say he want bubble tea..so yeahh..we tok tok tok..dhenn go under hys block n tok n took some pict..hahhas.adil gay ahh!! he loves camwhoring by HIS OWN! without me sumore..soyalz...hahahas..dhen around 8 plus..he send me to dhe bustop n wait for my bus...heeee...he n hys orang minyak..stop it sak..lol...kk...dhenn im here ryte now....weeeeeeeeeee..tanx eyh dil psl temankan aku...sory ah pasal aku sepak kau banyak kali n asek cubit pipi kau..wakakaka~will upload dhe pict soon..ngah tunggu si adil send me..lembab siol..someone asked me if i missed you..
i didnt answer.
i juz closed my eyes and walked away.
then i whispered,
"so much."
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
9:56 PM
NOTINK TO POST TODAY...I DUNNO WHY..DOESNT FEEL LYK IT..sometimes..
i wanna cry..
but when i remember
all dhe good moments and laughters
during all those phone calls...
i feel better..
this remind me dat
you've changed MY WHOLE LYFE!!
I MISS EUU ALOT!
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
10:20 PM
in dhe morning..i was late again..but i escape urhh..biase..panjat gate blakang..shhh! so yeahh...had lessons..n went for recess run...run for 6 rounds..bley pengsan sak...n only for 15 mins..siow..when i completed dhe 6 round..ive got leg cramp oredi..grrr..hate it sia..dhenn after recess..there's PE...grr..ms tan show us dhe route for our mass run nxt week..n it was so fucking annoying urh..from dhe hall...straight down to base..dhen down again..dhenn up..dhen behind dhe skool..dhenn go round n round dhe basement..dhen go up..grrr..dhenn after dat play a lame game called, 'man n mouse'..dun nid to explain on how to play dhe game...got pissed off....
After skool...went to mit minah tapau..i mean fadee..hahas..i miss her loads sia..i hug herlyk wat sia..hahhahas...dhenn went to fyawilda's house wif eeda..n they decided to play badminton when i had a leg cramp..before playing badminton..we play table tennis..n we went back home at 6 plus....
by then..i was so damn fucking tired..i juz sit down in front of dhe fan..hahas..dhenn do all dhe housework..n on my lappy..but dhenn even ryte now im still tired..felt very sleepy...gaaaaahhh!! SHAA!! WAKE UP!! LOL! hahas..coz..i type dhen stop n close my eyes...dhen type again..dhen close...adoiii~
kk...u all must be wondering why is dat guys pict up there...FYI dat guys name is Hakiim okays..i oso dunno y i put hys pict..suddenly i tot of hym seyy..haishh..HAKIIM! I MISH U! lol.....
"I can't stop loving you,
There's no use to try.
Pretend there's some one new;
I can't live a lie.
I can't stop wanting you
The way that I do.
There's only been one love for me,
That one love is you."
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
8:38 PM
ITS MY 100th POST!yeay!hmm..today ii was late to skool!! grrr!! n dat mr LIM KEE TIONG WAS AT DHE FRONT GATE..there was a quite a big number of gurls hu late urhh..dhen from far he shout to me.."you!! better do your detention tis afternoon! better turn up! if not i booked u! " i gave hym dhe 'wateva' look n walk off..juz cant be entertain..dhe other gurls was juz looking at me...so what..i dun care sia..skali i saw shiny at dhe back of dhe line sia...she was late too..hahas..yeay! at least i got sumone wif me for detention..hehe..so yeahh..had lessons as usual..no books as usual..tok as usual...evrytink as usual urhh..dhennnnnnnnnnnnnnn...i tot dhe shock was over for ysterdae...skali....today i was also shock sia...i was told dat today we had to perform for cca fair!! wassup wif these ppl sia..y cant they juz tell me earlier?? gaaaaaaahh!! dhenn before dhe show start..there's another shocking news..i was lyk kip on laughing in front of dhe audience...actually..ysterdae..we performe in front of some china guest...dhenn today..dhe emcee say dat dhe china ppl invite us to china n perform there!! hahahahahahhas..they say we all play it very well n nice n awesome n wat so eva..when all my cca members tot we suck..serious sia..i laugh n laughh..so...wat do they expect? carry dhe kulintangs in dhe aer0plane???? wakakakaka...wateva..im not goin china kayyss...lols..so yeahh...didnt go for detention wif shiny...grrrrrr...tomorow i wanna mit fadee...dhenn go to fyawilda's house wif eeda coz its fya's bdae...goshh..i havent got anytink for her!! i forgot siaaa.....now im so fucking irritated wif my grandma siaaaaaa!!!!!!!!! can u juz shutup for awhile?????????? im not trying to be rude..but u really gets to my nerve sia...u kip on saying dat u feel warm..i close dhe light for u..i put on dhe fan speed 3 n FACING DIRECTLY INFRONT OF U. u take out ur shirt..n still feel hot? n shouting lyk mad woman..i cant stand it sia........ARGHH!! THERE SHE GOES AGAIN!! IM SORRY NYAI...I CANT TAKE IT!! BUT I STILL LURVE U..PLS..OH GOD PLS..MAKE MY GRANDMA FEEL BETTER N MAKE HER STOP SCREAMING LYK MAD WOMAN!! PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!U ALL NEVER NOE HOW I M SUFFERING HERE!!!! SHE JUZ BROUGHT ME TO TEARS SIA...N U R SCARING ME SIA!! HAISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*I HOPE EUU NEVER EVER
GOT ME LOOSE*
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
10:34 PM
well..today..i was abit shocked in dhe mornin'..hu is dat teacher name eyhh...hmm..wait..let me tink....gaaahh! i forgot..wateva it is..i always call her dhe siow2 teacher..(only me,ash,kama n ujjal noe..wakakakaka!) kayss...sha made an announcement dat there is chinese new year celebration in our school today..n it lyk Ouh Amm Gee!! doesnt dat means dat my cca is performing today??? gaaahh!! y nvr terll me earlier..wif my messy hair today as i was late to skool...haiyooo..nobody noe how nervous i am..lol..dhenn followed by another shockin thing...kasfira was ABSENT!!! n dhe other player ask me to play kasfira's instrument...HUHHHH?? wat dhe *tooooot*...lol..n one of dhe song,kasfira have to start solo..n now,i have to do dat solo part??? gosh!! tok to ash bout tis n she made me relax fer awhile...hahas...she say ," dun worry sha..i will cheer for u later!" hahas..i was quite ok dhenn....dhenn when dhe performance want to start..the teachers told us dat there will be no MICROPHONE!! gaaaaaahh!! stress...how am i goin to play out loud until evrybody in dhe hall can hear me..its impossible..n another problem came by...channelle is suppose to conduct..since im starting solo,i have to look at her...but now dhe problem is....i cant even see herr...n dhe skool waited for me sia..so embarassing...dhenn eeda juz give me dhe counting...first starting..eeda was lyk whispering to me, "play louder!! louder!! summore!!!" damn..i panic oredi sia...hahahas...gaaaaahhh!! but dhenn when dhe rest came in..it was much better..a lil disaster but still can make it....dhe second song, i tink i screwed up..coz i play hentam pocai sak..its so difficult...my hand lyk octopus oredi sia...hahahahasssss...niways its already over...a day of...i dunno how to describe urhh...lol...i juz kip on laughing to myself...gaaahhh....EVRYTINK IS FINE NOW DEAR....KAYYSSSSS... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~"Look into my eyes
Can't you see they're open wide
Would I lie to you baby??
Would I lie to you??...
Don't you know it's true
Boy there's no-one else but you
Would I lie to you baby??
Would I lie to you??
trust me baby...
If I tell you that I'm here to stay
(would I lie to you??)
Do you think I give my love away??
(would I lie??)
That's not the kind of game I play..
I'm telling you baby...
You will never find another boy
in this heart of mine"
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
7:53 PM
kays..finally ive got tyme to on my lappy..geeezz..was not feeling well today..had stomach flu but i still go to skool even when there's so many ppl ask me to go home..i cant afford to miss out anymore lessons u see..im already absent on friday..so yeahh...`dhenn had cca juz now...its until six..i really cant stand some ppl in my cca...me,eeda n halimah kip on gossiping bout those ppl..coz they r seriously god damn irritating..i dun tink u guys can even stand them......grrrr..watevaa...`dhenn after dat si nasri bacen sroh kol..hahahas..wateva la he...now oni i noe dat he had 5 points for hys o levels sia..n he went to temasek poly...n took bio wat course ahhh...mls nk ingat..hehehe..aiyoyo...bacen2 mcm gytu pon pandai...haishh...so yeahh..tok tok tok...until dhe coin all finishh..bacen tol ahh..dhenn fetch haziq from skool n stuff...dhen here i am...`niways..tanx ferr all my schoolmates hu really care for me when im terribly sick juz now..u all got woRried n kept on asking if im ok or not..hahahas..adoii...really appreciate it u guys...u noe hu u are..so yeahh..shall stop here thenn...`" DO REMEMBER DAT
SHA HEARTS EUU
ALWAYS =] "
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
8:21 PM
today is...hmm..i dunno how to describe today..early in dhe morning..mummeh kept on pestering me to follow her to malaysia wif bik lin...im so not going la seyy..dhen i continue slipping..dhe next minute..mummeh shout again..haiyoo...dhenn slip again..dhenn she shout sumore dhen i slip..hehehe...nana was annoyed by it..so she say she will go wif my mum..lol..tanx nana (:dhen spend dhe whole day clening my house..chat wif cikgu..lol...i guess im having STM..hahahas..dhenn after dat went to RM wif haziq..n goshh..my skirt kip on falling down sia..it was damn funneh urhh..dhen got 1 man staring at my skirt..its a short skirt btw..dhen i felt dat dhe skirt is dropping off soon as its already under my buttock..hahahahahas..dhenn haziq,he was walking so fast sia..i cant kol hym..so i juz stand n wait for dat man to look sumwhere else..hahahas...after dat...go buy food as im lazy to cook today..so yeahh..mummeh called n say dat she's reaching home soon..grrr...plan to mit adil oredi sia..but dhenn it was cancelled again..haiyooo...
dhenn mummeh say dat we r goin to dira's house..so i went back home n get ready..skali when she reached home..she say ,"kau jadi pergi sha? kau nk gy??" i was lyk wth ahh..wat she toking sia..haishh..so evrytink was canceled..n juz stay at home..
at night.....hahahahahas...mummeh start scolding evrybody sia..its so goddamn irritating ahh..first nana get scolded..dhen haziq..dhen me..dhen nyai..hahahas...dhenn me,nana n haziq was laughing sia..coz its lyk so funneh sia...mummeh was juz scolding2 non stop..dhenn mummeh throw evrytink dat she see in dhe hall sia..i mean throw on dhe floor..nabeh tingting...aku dah kemas elok2,dier gy berserak kan plak..so i go n clean up again..dhenn mummeh ask me to hang dhe clothes..hahahahahahahas..funneh sia...i guess mummeh dah sot dot sia..there's only two piece of clothes n havent been washed sia..nak jemur aper kalau gytu..hahaha..i kip on smiling to myslf sia..i didnt tell mummeh bout dat thing..dhenn after awhile mummeh ask me wat im doin at dhe kitchen..i was lyk..juz now u ask me to hang dhe clothes wat..dhenn she say..ouhh..ok...hahahahas..
mummeh..mummeh..........
so yeahh..have been smiling to myslf..having crazy ppl around me..ngan adil si biol..dhen mirza pm me...si hakiim dear...dhen si nasri sewel..hahahas...tanx alot u guys..u all really make my day..
"Ti ringrazio per essermi stata accanto, sostenendomi sempre. Te ne sono davvero grato."
(Thank you for being there for me and supporting me throughout. I really appreciate it.) -its in italy
so yeah ppl..tanx alot *hughug* *winks*
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
8:47 PM
as usual...get up in dhe mornin..do all the housewerk dhenn on my lappy...dhenn i put on away mode in msn..n off to dhe kitchen n cook asam pedas today..while cooking..bik lin call n ask if i could follow her to tanglin mall..its far la siow..after finish cookin i ran back to my lappy n saw 10 pm..im so sorry u guys..all went offline oredi..haishh..n yeah nash is one of them..so yeahh..sory..was buzt cooking...dhenn after dat nana say she wan to use dhe lappy for awhile..so i let her use my lappy while i go n get ready..at 2 plus i met bik lin n her children,raudhah n kid at RM..dhenn we wlk n took 87 i guess..n saw husaidi..lol..i was such a long tyme since i saw hym..he was dhe one hu called me first..dhen followed by hys 'mats' frens..so yeahh..bik lin juz kept quiet..dhen i told bik bout yesterdae..dhe msg dat my dad gave me..it was so hilarious sia..dat tyme i was wif eeda..dhen mummeh ask me to msg my dad dat she cooked soup kambing..dhenn ermm...cant put wat my dad eply here..hahahahhahas..siow ah my dad..but im so going to tell meera..hahas...will tell u when i see u babe(:
so yeahh..was suppose to mit bik lin's aunt..but dhen she never turn up..nabei tingting btol..fedup sia..dhen after dat went back home..tot of meeting adil dhen go n slip at bik lin's hous but dhen adil majok pasal smlm nyer msg..WTF..kau takmo mepek bley tak..saper tak fedup siol..dhenn i was oso lazy to go bik lin's house by dhenn..so yeahh..
im so fucking happy la sia..sumone cheer me up..lols..he is juz a fren of mine..but i miss hym la seyy..dat day he went for overseas training..i miss my stupid siowsiow fren! mr 'Nice And Sweet Rebellion Independent'.. step jer namer...lol..nasri..hahahas..kk dah dahh..panjang umor adil..luckily im holding dhe fon ryte now..he juz msg me..mepek ahhh..hahahhahas...n abah..i still cant forget dat msg..its so damn fucking funny..i dunno if u noe dat i read dat msg for mummeh..LOL..
"WATASHI WA ANATA NO AISHITERU DESU" =] (i love u)
IM SO GOING TO LEARN JAPANESE FROM XANNE EVRY FNN LESSON..ERMS FREE LESSONS ACTUALLY COZ IVE DROP FNN(:
weeeeeeeeeeee~
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
9:55 PM
HAISHH!! PHEWWW~another day went by n yeah didnt go to skool today as i was feeling unwell...followed mummeh to dhe doctor..dhenn go to cp to eat..i dunno y im feeling so down today...i miss dat person badly but..im juz too scared to tok to hym..i noe he doesnt lurve me dhe way i lurve hym..but...haishh..why must it be so sudden..tomorrow suppose to mit adil but dhen he pissed me off..was toking to me on msn..dheN he ask me wat tyme i wan to mit hym..when i want to answer,he went offline oredi..wat sia..dhenn i go call hym coz he say he cant msg animore as hys pp8 low but ppl could kol hym..so yeahh..when i called hym to ask bout dhe timing..skali he add one gurl into our convo..i was lyk WTF sia..dhen he say,"korang dua bbl dulu ah..(dhen wat sumore he say..i dun no ahhh) " dhe next minute,i put down dhe fon wifout saying bye...wat dhe *toot* ahh..dhenn i msg hym usin my mum fon,"aku kol kau nk tanye timing jer. bukan nak membebel sia"...skali he eply wat i forgot oredi..dhen i eply,"dah la..tak yah jumper sudah. tanx alot la eyh" dhen i pass dhe fon back to mummeh..dunno whether he eply or not...gasak la..n yeahh..yesterdae..udin mcm siak ahhh...he go tell nuruljade bout wat happen in other ppl's fm...yg psl 'prangai jade' tuhh..grrrr..abeh libatkan aku nyer namer..mcm siak jer..aku tak tau aper2 aleh2 kene marah..dunno wat else to say..gasak dorng ahh...Y AM I FEELING SO DOWN TODAY!!!!! ARGH!! I HATE TIS FEELING!!"COZ I MISS YOUR LOVE SO MUCH..
I NEED YOU HERE WIF ME..
MY WORLD IS NOTINK WITHOUT YOU..
IF ONLY YOU COULD NOE HOW MUCH YOU MEANT TO ME..
HAISHH..
I WISH I COULD REWIND DHE TYME WHEN YOU N ME WERE SPENDING TYME ON DHE FON TOGETHER...
HEARING UR LAUGHTERS...
BUT I GUESS
EVRYTINK IS JUZ TOO LATE..."
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
11:03 PM
DEAREST GURLFREN!!HAPPIE 17th BIRTHDAY!!!!
HOPE EUU LOVE DAT CUTE POOH BEAR,CUTE CAKE N CUTE CARD WIF OUR PICTS ON IT...I LURVE U SO MUCH SWEETHEART!! I DUN CARE WAT PPL WANNA SAY..I JUZ WAN U TO NOE HOW MUCH I CARE FOR U..HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE U..HOW MUCH I LOVE U!! MY SWEETEST SWEETIE PIE..(:
FOR EVRYONE'S INFO..
TIS GURL BESIDE ME HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME..SHE'S JUZ LYK AN ANGEL..HAHHAS..I LOVE HER OWN WAYS WHEN SHE GETS ANGRY..OR WHEN SHE HAVE HER 'TISH-TACKS" LOLS..ONI ME,SONIA,EEDA N MEERA NOE BOUT TIS...HEHEHE...I HOPE DAT OUR FRENSHIP WOULDNT END AT THE END OF TIS YEAR..WE WILL STILL STAY IN CONTACT EVEN AFTER OUR O LEVEL RYTE..SO YEAHH...TODAY IS DHE FIRST TYME I HUG U SO TIGHLY N I KEPT ON HUGGING U NOW N DHENN..HAHAHAS...ALL DHE BEST SWEETHEART! IM GOING TO MISS UU LOADS..MUACKZZ!! *HUG TIGHT2 AGAIN* hehehehe...
never give up in anytink u do..i noe u can do it..juz kip on to believe in urself n for sure u will be a successful woman 1 day..u juz have to work hard...lyk wad i use to say , "today's preparation determines tomorow's achievement"
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
6:01 PM
well..all dhe above picts r taken when me,meera n shiiny went for a poly 'marathon'...first we went to temasek poly dhenn nanyang poly dhenn to republic poly open hous...hahahhaass...some funny n some bored moments..we were feeling very tired when we reached republic poly..too many goody bags to carry n stuff urhh...dhenn after dat meera went back to my house while shiiny went back to her house..at night around 11 plus..my family n meera's family went to eat at jalan kayu..meera n me wasnt eating dat much coz we r juz too tired n sleepy..so yeahh..n it was crowded la seyy..when we reach home..i juz went straight to bed seyy..seriously..im juz too tired..tata!
"Ku berjanji
hanyalah untukmu cintaku...
Takkan pernah ada yang lain..
Adakah rindu dihatimu,
seperti rindu yang kurasa??"
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
10:40 PM
SKOOL IS BACK!! MEERA IS BACK!! EVRYONE IS BACK!! N ALREADY DHE FIRST DAY OF SKOOL SUCKS!! ive got suspended sey...dhe teachers kept on saying dat im not capable of doin O LEVEL..soyal betoll...grrr..but dhenn i dun care urhh..there is only four of us...ujjal,kama,ash n me..so yeah..its an 'in-house' suspension..meaning...we cant go for camp...cant go anywhere ..cant interact wif dhe other skoolmates..FOR A WEEK!! a week may seem notink to some of u but..it means alot to us..from 0730am to 0330pm sia..dhenn there will be test for us..if we fail..we r suppose to re-do it again n again..if we still fail..we r to be kick out of dhe skool...haishh..but dhenn its still quite fun urhh...we kept on eating junk food sia..hahas..dhenn tok2..action2 study..all kind of crap urhh..fyi..we have to sit infront of dhe general office which is at dhe concourse area..so yeahh...so malu sia..ppl kept on asking y we sit there n even some teachers..or should i say 3/4 of dhe teachers came asking..we got totally fed-up n ujjal decided to write down " WE ARE UNDER SUSPENSION. WE ARE NOT ALLOWED TO TALK TO U GUYS. SO BETTER SHUT UP N MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS. N YEAH! PLEASEEEEE STOP ASKING!! "hhaas..i noe its kinda rude but..wat to do...dhe next person hu came by was ateacher..she ask again n we juz give dat slip of paper to her..hahas..dhenn dunno urh wat she say..we heck care oni..lol..n there is a piano beside us..anybody can come n play..but then ahh..while we were studying..they were having recess n they play dhe piano..n got tis one particular gal she play so dreadfully sia..not nice at all..i stand up n say to them dat they r not allowed to play dhe piano as later mrs elangovan (D.M) will scold them n put them in suspension oso..i havent fnish tokin,they ran away oredi..we all laugh lyk wad sia..dhenn i go carry dhe examination stand which shows dat dhe area is out of bounds n put it at dhe side of dhe piano. it wasnt suppose to be there urhh..hahas..kama n i kip on taking bout our lyfe...dhenn four of us kip on gossiping bout sumone..lol..funny sia dat part..dat tyme eeda was also there as she was waiting for me urhh..but she sit a lil bit far from dhe suspension place..(she's dhe wan hu take dat pict) ..hahas..dat tyme we all laugh rabak nak mampos sia..dhe whole skool was having camp at dat tyme..but only dhe sec one camp is in dhe skool..so yeahh..they were playing treasure hunt..then we all kip on disturbing dhem sia..we make dhem run around dhe skool..lol..if i explian here oso u all wont get it..so yeahh...hahas.."They don't know
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how long it takes..
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Waiting for
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a love like this..
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Every time we say goodbye..
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It seems so hard
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for me to leave..
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I'll wait for you,
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I promise you I will"
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
5:05 PM
finally its 2009...i've always wanted to start on a fresh brand new year..as 2008 is a complete miserable of my lyfe...its dhe year with soooo many misery,probs n all dhe bad lucks...haishh...but dhenn luckily evrytink went fine at dhe end of it...ive learn how to forgive n forget...how not to take things for granted..how to appreciate ppl..how to love myslf..there's juz too many things to be listed down..so yeahh..maybe i should juz kip it to myself...not to be forgotten..ive met so many nice ppl...more PERVERTS..opps..lols...more love..but shall no say on how it ends...having crushes..lol...evrytink went headwire...n especially..learn how to reject ppl...love them for hu they are and not from their appearance..the year when i sooo crazily in love wif dat guy..shall not say dhe name here..hehehe..only close frens knew bout it;..so yeahhh..so now...about countdown...tis year i countdown oline..it was fun though..there's still ppl online..n saw fireworks from my window...best...much better then going to ECP...marina n watsoeva...when its 12 am..received so many pm wishing me a happy new year..hahas..too many ppl..but i manage to reply to all...but thenn...i dunno why tears ran down my face dat nite..i felt so emo suddenly..maybe...haiya...dunno urhhh...so yeahhh...lyk wad ive said in my previous post..ive been promoted to sec 5...(: i was happy but dissapointed at dhe same tyme....coz frankly..i didnt study for my N level..serious...maybe i could have better grades if i put in more effort n study....hmm....wat else eyhh....ouh ya!! i miss my fon sia!! i want my fon!!!!! arghhh!! its so god damn irritating....I CANT WAIT TO GO TO SKOOL!!"UR SMILE HAS
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CAPTURED MY HEART...
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N TILL NOW
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ITS FRESH IN MY MIND...
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I CANT STOP MYSELF
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FROM LURVING EUU"
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
7:57 PM
dats dhe other pict i took wif adil..i noe it looks funnehh..but nvm..lol..
BORED!! IM SO BORED!! lol..there's notink much today..juz clean dhe house n online..dats my werk..lol.... mummeh scold me lyk hell for coming back late yesterdae..she kept on askin where i go yesterdae n wif hu..i juz kip quiet...mepek sia..its not dat i come back home after 12 midnight..grrr...
