seriously..i cant go to sleep yesterdae night..wat deq ***** say is still lingering in my mind..i feel so terribly sad..until when must i lie to myslf n lie to ppl dat i got no feelings towards a guy?? when evrytink is cleared..why must all tis came by..
dhe first tyme u sing to me, dhe sound can nvr erase..dhe first tyme i saw u..dhe pict will nvr fade..dhe first tyme i tok to u,i will nvr forget..seriously..i love u dat much..im not forcing u or rush bout anitink...i juz want u to noe how i felt..how i tried to forget u by tryin to replace u..but u still stay FRESH in my mind...
tis is wat happens when i really truely love dat guy,it will all end with sadness..maybe i dun worth anitink to anybody...im a completely loser..i juz want u to noe dat i love u so much..u really worth a lot to me..seriously,u can nvr be replace..as i have nvr had a love for sumone this strong before..
TRUTH HURTS! TRUTH HURTS! REALLY REALLY HURTS..wad did i do rong??? why me? y am i so stupid to love u tis much?? am i a bitch? y must it be u? aisha! y muz u love hym?? y?? y not others guys?? ARGH!! TEARS! PLS STOP FLOWING! I HATE IT!
im restless..my eyes are swollen..didnt slip dhe hole day..didnt eat..got no mood for anitink..all want to do is shout out very loud..if oni im on top of dhe mountain.......if oni i could die wifout making a big sin..if only.......T_T
aisha,u sound as if u r a loser! where's dhe old aisha? dhe gurl hu doesnt care wats comin her way..n giv it her best..hey..im struggling here..i may sound childish but wad else should i do?? no one is there for me. no one. juz tis stupid lappy. if i dun have tis lappy,maybe all tis wont happen..wifout tis lappy,maybe i will not destroy ppl's frenship or should i say love..i dun wan my fren's love be destroyed juz becoz of me..im sorry guys..maybe..i should juz go away from dhe bof of ur life...maybe dats dhe best way..no more feelings..no more confusion..no more sadness..juz happiness....im acting lyk a mad woman now..ARGH!! f**K! i lurve dhem more dhen myslf..serious..if they ask me to jump down,i will jump down..im f**kin serious...i lurve dhe two of u loads..deq,tanx ferr evrytink..actually she's older dhen me but i call her deq n she call me akak..for some reasons..
n u..all dhe best..anitink,u can still find me..maybe..remember..."evrynite, wen i slp...i'm always sleeping beside u, without u knwng it...my body iz at my home, tp jasad i yg kt sblh u, tdo ngn u...even if i'm not wit u physically, i'm wit u hypertatically..."n 'i can feel wat u feel..' u,i really understand how u feel..but u r lying to me..u say dat u noe how i feel but actually, dhe truth is..u didnt no anitink.im very sory.........gdbye to all dat memories...it was nice having it...i will juz let love come n find me..no more of me finding love dat im yearning for..dat was nice...frankly,i still do love u..if u r reading tis..juz erase dat part from ur mind...haiz...
IM MISSING MY KAMBENG!!!!
bby,im in lurve wif eu♥
1:08 PM
i didnt go to skool today coz im superly sick becoz of yesterdae..