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yesterday while resting..i suddenly tot of 'atok'..he's juz a fren of mine..kk..hys name is issalli..i msg hym coz it has been 2 days he didnt msg me..n hahas..u now y he didnt msg me? its becoz of dat day in dhe chalet..he kip on msging me when im damn buzy playing captain's ball n he got angry when i didnt reply hys msges..so at night..i tried to call hym to say sorry..but instead,hys fren picked up dhe fon..n i got very angry..its lyk wth urhh..if u dun wanna tok to me..u dun nid to ask ur fren to pick up n talk to me..so i put down dhe fon n he tried calling me but i reject...dhen he msg me saying dunno wt urh..dhen i juz reply 'k' n i got no reply after dat..so now..when i ask y he nvr msg me these days..he say dat he scared if im still angry wif hym n wait for me to cool down first..heee..padehal i can be angry for a few minutes oni..so he kip on asking me if he could call me..first few tymes i juz told hym dat i dun wan..but after awhile..pity nyer pasal i let hym call me..dat tyme it was at 1 am..so we talk n talk..it was fun tokin to hym..yeah yeah yeahh..wateva..made me wanna fall in love again but i kip back all those feelings..dunno y urhh but my mind juz kip on saying no..there's so much to share about..he told me evrybits of hym...he love making jokes..he can still make me laugh even its not funneh..lol..tok n tok until dhe batt low..dhn i charge n continue tokin..from lying on dhe bed till lying on dhe floor..from 1 am till 6.45am..wad dhe hell im doiing man..ppl would tink dat we r crazy but..hell yeah..we tok for dat long...n hys mum kip on intefering..hahas..so we had to put dhe fon down n go to skool..so went to bathe n pack things for skool..he kept on saying dat he lurve me..n he was wondering y i didnt reply.."aiisha tak syg issalli eh? issalli ckp i love u tapy aiisha tk pernah jwb..naper eyhh?is it becoz u still dun trust me??im serious bout tis okehh.."..n i juz went mute..i cant make myself to say anitink..

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n today we have AESTHETICS NIGHT..dhe last performance before we graduate..during matinee..seriously..it sucks to dhe core..mariam became our conductor for dat day as lyk wad dhe teacher's say..we dun have enuff budget to ask mr ali to conduct as we nid to pay hym $70 for 1hr..so yeahh..we screwed up..evrybody screwed up..we play evrytink rong..wth? dhe worst performance ever..after dhe performance..mariam cried..dhe seniors cried..haishh..fuck urhh..dhen we went back at dhe dressing room n mrs lim was lyk kip on scolding us..tis is far worst dhen SYF sia..dhen after dat we had our finale n went back to dhe dressing room..dhe seniors try to cheer up dhe other members n try to stop mariam from crying...its not dhe end kays..theres still dhe actual night show..show them wat we've got mann..serious..dat was dhe first tyme i saw angklung n kulintang ensemble unite as one..im damn serious..n dat make me cry again..coz im so going to miss dhem..im so going to miss my dearest kulintang..hurrhurr..after dat..we r all ready for dhe actual show..actually dhe 'kulintang members' have planned sumtink way before aesthetics night which dhe others dunno..serious...so all dhe kulintang members was damn excited coz we oredi noe wads goin to happen for dhe finale show..of coz dhe seniors wants dhe best for dhe last show..we r better dhen SIGLAP sec..dhen mira say, "if u all cannot smile or shy to smile..juz imagine my face n u all will smile.." *puke* hahahas..aper sajer si india tu..so its our tyme..evrybody set up evrytink oredi..n dhe angklung ppl were surprise to see dat mariam was wif her angklung n standing at her SYF position..i tink dhe angklung members will be wondering hu will be conducting..n there were 5 seconds of silence..we heard sumone shout sumtink at us..n suddenly there was MR Ali walking up dhe stage n dhe angklung ppl were damn shock even dhe teachers we shocked dhen dhe angklung members start to cheer for mr ali on stage..i guess dhe audience would be wondering y we were cheering so badly for our conductor..me n mira smiled to each other as wat we planned has worked..n there suddenly evrybody smile..we felt dhe spirit ..we seriously do.. n i tell u..it was damn tremendous..IT WAS DHE BEST ANGKLUNG N KULINTANG PERFORMANCE EVER! yes it was..way much better dhenn SYF..dhe sign of satisfaction is there..right after dhe curtains were close..me,fatina,eeda n mira kip on jumping..n we've got dhe best applaud ever! dhe other cca didnt even get dat kind of applaud..when we reach dhe dressing room n close dhe door..evrybody shout at dhe top of their lungs..hugs r given to evrybody..imagine how happy we were..we even got to see ms alvina shout lyk mad woman..hahahs..we gonna miss all tis man..seriously..tanx to mr ali..it was all paid off man..all dhe plannings n stuff..woohoo..it was dhe most memorable day ever! we had dhe worst n dhe best performance at dhe same day..n ive got notes from dhe junior..so sweet of them..I LOVE ALL OF EU LOADs~!!! im so proud of them..n im proud of my cca..let wat ppl tink of my cca..they tot dat its juz a simple n boring thing? think it twice people. tc. n tanx to dhe junior coz u all finally move very nicely.. tanx alot.. =]

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bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 8:15 PM

juz now..i was oredi late..so i 'pon' skool..called my granddoter n told her dat i could folow her to MOE..coz she wanna reprint her Nlevel cert for a job application...she was helping her mum in dhe skool canteen..so went to YCK..n mit her there wif skool uniform..after dat we went in dhe skool..prebysterian high skool..i wanted to help out but granddoter say dat later she scared dat my uniform will be dirty..haiyaa..dhen got free water n free food..tanx alot to u granddoter n her ibu =] her ibu's cooking was super damn nice lor..i love dhe coleslaw..heeee~! after dat..her dad send us back to her house..she nid to change her clothes n stuff..ive brought my clothes..so i changed..we spent so much tyme in catching up on each others lyfe..n ask granddoter to play her guitar n sing..not bad eyhhhhh.. =p heheeheee..so yeah..after dat..we ask doter to follow us..but doter dunno dat im there..she tot there will oni be granddoter alone..so walk from granddoter's hous to sembawang mrt station..doter was surprise to see me..straight away she hug me lorr..missed her huggy n jiggy2..heee..so from there we took dhe train to bueno vista..many things happen..took pictures here n there..n kip on toking..hee..i lurve hanging out wif them sia..after all dhe cert thingy..we took dhe train back to woodlands..we bought stuff n wanted to chill at civic..but dhenn..since there's this suspicious old man looking at us..we decide to sit under dhe blocks..dhenn fanana say dat she wanna mit me..so we waited tis lil sis of mine until she finish skool which is around 5 plus..while walking back to civic..i saw Shameer..alamak...in my heart,im juz hoping dat he wont tell hys mum dat he saw me sia..if not mampos aku..luckily none of us light our ciGGy..(meera,ask ur bro dun tell anione u noe...) so waited for a few minutes n lil sis came..heeee..was happy to see her lor...missed her to dhe max..dhen we took lots of picts together..crazy picts until dhe ppl around us kip on looking at us..malu sia but fun urhh..sad to say but i have to bid gdbye at 6.45..i will be a dead meat if i go home any later..remember...i 'go' to skool...so yeah..lil sis,doter n granddoter send me to dhe interchange..n gave each of them a tight2 n long2 huggies..love to hug granddoter dhe most coz...ehem..find out urself..oni dhe four of us noe..hehehehe..u all go n try hugging granddoter urhh..mcm taknk lepas gytuk..hehehe..but doter hug me dhe longest..aww..lurve u three loads..MUACKZ!
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shuts urhh..dhe bus came late la pulak....dhe bus came at 7.10 when im supposed to be at home by 7..n sheila kip on calling me but i cant pick up dhe fon as i has to pretend dat im in skool..so yeah..she reached my house oredi sia..im damn tired...so around 7.50 i reached home..n ive forgotten to change to skool uniform back sia..abah saw me but he juz kept quiet n kept on toking to sheila..so went to change n take out my lappy n transfer songs to sheila's mp3..we took some picts n she went back at around 9 plus..after dat i went to bathe n rest in dhe room...so dats it..wanna get some rest..till dhenn..tc..
lilmissnana (doter)
salyieha (granddoter)
lil sis (fanana)

bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 11:00 PM

tuesday..tuesday..tuesday..finally its raining..n yeah..of coz..im still tired as usual coz i didnt slip again last night..all becoz of joe lor..he eyhh..at 2 am he call me.."u..u call i eyh tady?" "huh? biler i call u? tak der sey" "u kol i eyhh?".."eyh..tak la..i tak kol u pon.. k la..bye..i nak rest" hahhas..suare irritating sia...dat tyme he call me using hys fon..after dat he msg me..wah..i juz want to have rest sia..so layan kan jer urhh..as it has been a long tyme since i tok to hym..he love making my prepaid finish..hahas..after a few msges..sumone call me..usin house fon.. confirm its joe n confirm dier nak bbl lamer2..coz he will call me using hys house fon if he wanna tok to me for hours..at first i dun wan to pick up..but, kecian nyer pasal i picked up lor..suare step cute jer ni joe..hahas..n he told me alot of stories..i oni say "ohhhh...really?" hahahs..dhen dhe fon suddenly went off..hahahas..i tot finish oredi..he call again..n continue hys story..he told me about a gurl..n i was so damn pissed sia..suddenly i became damn angry n tok very loudof coz urhh..menjatuhkan maruah pompan sia..until nyai woke up n scold me..gaah! confirm later she complain to mummeh n mummeh will confiscate dhe fon..mepek sia..dhen i ask joe to put down dhe fon urh..cant tok on dhe fon nimore..but can oni msg..so he kept on msging me saying sory....
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J: nenek u tak tido alek? u kene marah eh? sory eyh klau pasal i u kene marah..im very sorry..
A: tkpe la..dah biase..dun nid to worry..dier tak tido alek urh..dier ngah terdudok tngok i..
J:tngok u? asl eyh? tnggu u tido eyh? beh baru dier tido eyh?i rase serba salah seyy..pasal i call u..u kene marah free2..
A: ala..ntah la..buat bodoh jer la u..nanti besok confirm dier complain kat mummeh...
J:hmm..asl lak die nak complain? psl u bbl kat fon?lerr..nanti tak pasal2 u kene marah ngn mummeh..
A: biarla..dah biase urh u..limit2..dier confiscate fon..
J:hmm..lahh..dhen camner nak contact u sey..im really very sorry k..pasal i hp u kene tarik..
A:dah la..tkyah sory2 la...klau tkder fon..u maseh ley contact i pkai comp perhh..
J: mestilah i ckp sory..klau tak pasal i.ni sumer tak terjadi perhh..hmm..ala..comp pun bukannyer i pakai hary2..nanti camner klau i rindu u?
A:u nak rindu i watper? klau boring2..u msg la pompan yg u ckp tady tu...*puke*hahahhas
J:eeeeiii!! geli seii..dah eyhh..tak nak contact ngan dier..nak uat aper seyy?hmm..pompan gytuk...lepas kan nafsu ok urhh..despo..lagy baek mataer ngan u dary mataer ngn dier sey..
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dhen i was not bothered to msg back coz its oredi 6.30..tyme to bathe n go to skool..therefore...i didnt sleep..hahas.. damn sleepy sia..n yeah..from last tyme i noe dat me n joe will nvr be together..he's too hot for me sia..but i love seeing hym shuffling n he can sing very well..
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n yahh..tok bout singing...i noe 3 people hus going to join anugerah 2009..
its my bro Stino,my grand daughter Salyieha n my cuzzie Acul..i love saly's voice..i didnt noe she can sing before but i was mesmerised by her voice when dat day she sang in front of me on babyirahh's bdae..so all dhe best guys..maybe i will be coming down to support u all..budak2 fm pon nak tron support..my famil oso nak tron support..kecoh perhh..hahahs..weeeee~!

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bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 12:28 PM

im tired..tired n just tired...serious..from friday to sunday..there's chalet organise by aunty mahh..its a bangalow in changi..i was left alone at home wif nyai while dhe rest went to dhe chalet oredi..i cant follow dhem on friday as i got oral on dhe next day..which is on saturday..on friday nite..round 12 plus a night..i went to cheers alone o buy topup card..n there was alot of mats hanging out..n it happens to be one of them is my fren..so introduce2..n lepak for a while..all guys except for me..i was around 2 am..so i went back home..n nyai was asleep..i watch dvd n stuff n went for oral wifout any sleep..n yahh..issali aka atok kip on msging me..n suddenly he got damn dirty..so i juz act as if i sleep oredi..mls wan to layan sia..n i was msging bestie at dhe same time...
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saturday morning..went to skool..n mr rahmat is dhe teacher in charge..n dhe weather was so damn warm...dhe passage was difficult coz theres so many long words here n there..n dhe conversation is about internet..n mr rahmat ws juz damn disguisting..he will wipe hys sweat wif hys hand n eww..i dunno urhh..hahas..its juz disguisting..eeda waited for me..coz she want to go rivervale mall..after dat..went back home..n abah say dat he will pick me up..so waited for hym..soon after..uncle nainam,mamoo,mummeh n abah reach home..they say they want to take foods dat they had ordered from mak besar nabesah n kak ina..gaah! so went to their shop n nid to wait for awhile coz they havent finish cooking.. i dunno rhh..i juz noe dat ive nvr lyk them..super irritating ppl..i noe im fat okeh..yes im FAT.but u dunnid to discriminate me lyk one animal. shit sia..i was so damn pissed off n even mummeh..i cant stand to see their face urhh.. its not dat im trying to be rude or wat..but ive been tolerating their nonsence for all tis years sia..hati saper tak saket? its not tat im very sensitive or wat..but evryone has their own limit..aku lawa ke tak lawa ker..aper korng heran? nak suroh aku pakai pakaian terdedah perh? dah bagos aku tutop aurat sia..dari pakai mini skirt ngn baju low cut nak mampos..wateva la eyhh..so yeah..after dat we went straight to dhe chalet..it was kinda big..but dhe chalet dat i had for sec 3 camp bungalow was bigger..blablabla...it was sunday..early in dhe morning..dhe aunties r 'gambling' for fun..they say its to kill tyme..it was kinda fun..aha..i winn lorrr...=p played captains ball for alot of tymes sia..until my clothes were drenched n we r damn tired... when meera all went back home..me n dira went out for awhile..hahaha.. she called me 'crumpler' wt ever la eyhh..haha..mepek...juz in tyme.. uncle harris came n send us back home..abah went to stay over again...reach home oredi..i cant get to sleep..so yeah..k done la..im tired...heeee =D
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niways to bestie...im sorry aites..didnt mean to be lyk dat..haishh..felt very bad sia..dun be so tensed aites..i noe dat sooner or later u will get serina..dun worry..im here prayin dhe best for eu bestie..tc.lurve ya..

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bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 10:39 PM

AiiSHaa Lurhh feat. Mira Maurice (mira india)

we've got SILVER for SYF..it was held in republic poly..lazy to update more out it coz after dhe results..theres so many things happen..EMBARASSING moments n FUNNY moments n SHOCKING moments..so..yeah..will tell eu when i meet you....lazy urh wan to update.....haiyaa..

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bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 11:24 PM

well today...skool is as per normal..its Juz dat things gets a lil bit weird..idk why n dun ask me why..hmmz..straight after skool..theres cca..lyk duh coz syf is oni 2 days away..getting nervous oredi..n yeah..we've got our costume..it was in apple green colour..seriously..its not lyk we expect sia..i have to say dhe truth..its UGLY. n yeah..mrs lim made us some flowers so dat we can put it on our hair n is damn big n not nice..but we cant complain much though coz she took dhe effort to make all by herself for us..sighh...when our instructor,mr ali came in..she kept on smiling broadly..ive done wif my costume,make up n hairdo..so i juz sit one corner wif fatina..while mira MAURICE*puke* mingle around..hahas..mr ali gave me dat sarcastic look coz seriously..lykl wad fatina say "we look lyk a bunch of celeries"..it does not get any better..at 4 plus dhen we start practising..only after i yell at dhe rest coz from my point of view,there is no nid to dress up today..lyk merepek sia..serious..y dun we juz practice n make our piece perfect..getting ourself looking very preety wont bring us anywhere indeed. so yeah..after an hr plus of practice..mr ali wanted to show us some videos of dhe other skools performing..its all mr zul's(mr ali's fren) skool..we saw loyang sec,broadrick sec,jurongville sec,national junior college n another one more skool which ive forgotten..n yeah.from there oni we could appreciate our costume..at least it looks better dhen loyang sec's contume..n we started to feel more nervous sia..coz we can see dat they r much better..especially NJC which had gold for 2005 n 2007..i tink dat we wont get gold..i dunno urh..maybe juz to be prepared..lol..serious..i love my cca sia..i wan dhe best out of it..i dun want those attitude dat dhe juniors have will make my cca go down to drain..they nid to be more commited sia..
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after dat..me,eeda,tinah n mira went to dhe pasar malam near compasspoint..we bought tako yaki n burgers n after dat we went to chill sumwhere under dhe block..it was about 7 plus dat tyme..dhen eeda started toking bout ghost..n yeah..i dunno wats rong wif me but its dhe truth..i can see those kind ofd things with my eyes sia..it was scary though but i didnt freak out coz maybe ive used to it..haishh..been keeping tis secret of mine for so long oredi sia..dhen after awhile..things got worst n i juz ask them to stop toking bout it n juz move off from dat place..dhen bid goodbye to mira n tinah..while walking wif eeda..i suddenly say dat actually there sumtink behide dhe pillar juz now n she run away..n yeahh she scream..its funny but yeah..quite embarassing coz we r in dhe middle of dhe pasar malam. dhen she was lyk,"no wonder i felt very different suddenly juz now..its as if there's sumtink behind me.."but she was totally freak out sia..she was about to cry but dhen i apologies for telling her urhh..i noe tat i should not have tell but i accidentally say it. irritating urh..dhen i say," i dunno wats rong wif me but when i see tis kind of things, sometimes i will juz blurt it out or i will juz kip quite n stoned" dhen she says.."ya..i remembered..u still havent tell me wat u saw in dhe museum at jakarta dat tyme" dhen i stoned..dat incidence was on of dhe scariest moment..still havent tell anybody wat i saw dat day..haish..i dun wan to have this kind of visions sia..its lyk..wth..better stop here urh..feeling a bit tired oredi..till dhen..tc..
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You see love at first is summer time.
That's when you think that everything's fine.
No one ever thinks its gonna end
But when things go wrong and winter comes
You're gonna need to run to someone
Left alone you'll just freeze up again
But you should know
When it gets too cold
You're not alone
I'll melt the snow

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bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 11:22 PM

firstly,i would lyk to apologise becoz i didn't update for quite sometyme..as i was damn lazy to go online these days n its not dat ive notink to blog about..its juz dat i had lots of things to blog until my mind is blank..
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THURSDAY: basicly on thursday after skool..decided to spend tyme wif shiiny dear n sonnie.actually its dhe most tiring day ever..i dunno y but its juz damn tiring..for P.E. they had to run 10 rounds in less dhen 13 mins..after dat had a badminton match wif sonnie..dhen had hiphop lesson for 1 hr plus..dhen walk from skool to compasspoint.we've decided to go to PS to eat pizza hut n have our dessert at 'ice monster'..so yeah..took dhe mrt straight there n it was raining..we've forgotten bout dhe service charge sia..it was $2 plus. luckily i had brought extra money..but i guess not enough for dhe 'ice monster'..but i was really looking forward for it.so shiiny said dat she would take care of dhe payment of 'ice monster'..so yeah..after pizza hut..we walk towards dat dessert shop..dhe menu was already diffrent n dhe menu had change..damn it urhhh!! so yeah..went to mcd for some ice-creams dhenn..gaahh..yeeritating..dhn we walk here n there n decided to go back to sengkang..when we reached,shiiny said dat she was damn tired so she went back home after some huggies=] sonnie n i walk around sengkang..n decided to chill sumwhere near my house..so i decided to choose a very nice place..its at dhe top of dhe multi-storey carpark which is sumwhere behind my block..n theres an expressway n we can see punggol from there..seriously,its nice..but before dat,i brought her back home for awhile n i get change..we spend about thirty mins taking photo from up there..dhen at 7 plus..we went back to my home again coz sonnie nids to go to dhe washroom..dhen we went back again to dhe carpark..n damn..dhe view was damn nice at night sia...took picts n stuff n send sonnie to dhe bus stop at 8 plus..i went back home n realised dat my house key is wif her..haiyaa..so basicly friday n saturday, i juz rot at home..hee..didnt even go out..
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SUNDAY: abah bring me out for fishing at changi..sumwhere near pulau ubin..we went there wif my family n my dad hot fren..lol..seriously..he's hot.. since last tyme i like hym urh..i mean..lyk admire oni urhh...not more dhen dat..so yeah..hys name is bakhtiar..mummeh warn me not to be flirty over there..lyk wtf urh..me? flirty? u've got dhe rong person sia..but i juz ask why urhh..dhen mummeh say dat hys wife will be there..dhen i was lyk..since when he got wife sia??? so help mummeh cook n pack some food..dhen ya..we went there wif stupid boy too..alermak..its bcoz of meera im addicted to dat nickname. lol..its actually syawal. i dunno y urh..nowadays if i mit hym..for sure we will have cat fights..even its for minor things..sometimes when i tink about it again,its damn stupid urh. so yeah..around 9 we reach oredi..bakhtiar was already in dhe sea...n yeah..for ur info..we r not going fishing lyk dhe normal fishing..we r finding for marine fish n corals to put in dhe tank..therefore we nid to dive in dhe sea n search for it. abah was hoping dat we could get atleast 1 seahorse dat day...dhen at ferst we caught small fishes urh..but wat for sia..we want big fish..lol..lyk duhh..dhen bakhtiar went up n sit beside me..dhen mummeh call me to sit beside her..merepek sia..i juz oni want to start a conversation..dhen mummeh ask me to call bakhtiar, uncle..haishh..he is not old enuff fotr me to call hym uncle la seyy..blablabla..theres high tide so we cant go fishing at dat tyme..dhen it started to rain..me,syawal,abah n bakhtiar went around n try looking for spots dat we could fish. we went near dhe beach..i saw this particular creature..its damn nice n its red in colour..so i decided to scoop it up wif dhe pail n show it to abah..when abah decided to touch it bakhtiar shout sia..its funny but i was wondering why he shout..dhen he say dat dat thing is very poisonous..one u touch it..ur hand will rot..dhen oni we discover dat there was so many similar creatures on dhe sand..so we stay away from dat area..dhen after awhile...bakhtiar say dat he must go n fetch hys wife..dhen dat stupid boi pandai2 go take dhe net n try to catch some fish...but...LOL..dhe net got hook up wif some rock underneath dhe water..dhen he was scared to go down. he kip on saying dat hu noes there's shark in there..LOL..dhe whole family started to laugh..hyds reaction was very funneh urh..dhen abah have to go down to dhe sea to help hym..dhen after a few minutes, bakhtiar came...i tot he was wif hys aunty or wat sia..suddenly mummeh say dat dat woman is hys wife..coz she look much2 older sia..but no matter wat..im a frenly gurl marh..i appraoch her n start toking urh..skali she is an indonesian..waduhhh...after a few hours, dhe four of us went down to start fishing..stupid boy got dhe nice2 coral sia..most of them are 'fans'..i loike dhe white colour sia..stupid boy is very good at diving..dhen bakhtiar was on dhe look out..dhen he ask all of us to beware coz theres a group of jellyfish. blablabla..actually there is alot of things happen..but lazy to type..
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MONDAY: i was damn sick.. i cant move my body at all..after a few hours oni dhen i can wake up from bed..so i was absent from skool..but still i was sick n there's sumtink growing on my body..but i juz kept quite..
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TUESDAY: my condition got worst...but i went to skool..after awhile..it became more painful..my frens force me to go home..actually i dun wan to go home coz i will miss so many lessons..but due to circumstances..i went back home..dhen abah n mummeh brought me to dhe private doctor at rivervale plaza..i tell u..it was so damn fucking painful when dhe doctor touch dhe thing..dhe doctor ask if i want to go for surgery or not. i decline her offer..so she try to squeeze all out but she say dat she cant..so i juz say nvrmind urh..i will juz try to live wif it..dhen she ask i wan mc for how many days..a doctor ask me? dhen i say up to her urh..dhen mummeh interupt..she ask to gimme three days oni..dhe doctor tot of giving me a month..n yeah..i pay for dhe fees sia..all my savings r gone..its $70..after dat went back home..
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WEDNESDAY: since im on mc..i stayed at home..in dhe afternoon abah say dat makbesah is very very sick..anytyme she could be gone..felt damn sad but i juz cant bring myslf to cry..haishh..for more info read meera's blog..i feel damn tired oredi urhh..
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THURSDAY: went to makbesar hous at 8 am..dhe house was damn full..blablabla..will update more bout it next tyme..sory..dhe pain is back urhh..dammit..gtg..tc..

bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 8:45 PM

today mummeh woke us early for skool..for dhe ferst tyme..aiisha had evrytink ready before 6.45 coz usually dats dhe tyme i wake up lorr..dhen today's timetable was ok urhh..not bad..coz i skip dhe last four lesson!! woohoo..went to dhe library wif rubini n shajeetha..dhen shajeetha was so damn happy today coz yesterday she juz got attached wif i dunno urhh...her ex skoolmate from northland. i forgot dhe guys name. dhenn..during assembly..had a boring tok again..ppl from catholic junior college came n tok tok..suppose to end at 2.10..but it finally ended at 2.35 siaa..dhen after dat skool ends but i had to go to mrs lau class coz she say dat she wanna mit me n some of dhe other classmates urh..skali she say dat i nvr pass up most of her homework dhen ask me to do on dhe spot..dhe others juz got one or two things to do..but me..i have to do 3 sia..difficult papers for 1 hr i guess..i had to do 2 full comprehension including dhe summary..dhen do 1 compo..shiate sia..shiiny dear oni nid to do 1 compo..dhen seffie, 1 compre..dhen ujjal, 2 compre. lastly sonnie darling must do 2 literature stuff..n dhe topic of dhe compo was , 'can i help u?' i was lyk..wth urhh..wat story i want to ryte..suddenly one idea came up dhen i finished a compo within 15 mins i guess n its 500+ words. lol..dhen proceed to do 1 compre..dhen 1 finished it at 4pm..shiiny dear which nid to do 1 compo still havent finish..so yeah since dhe others oso havent finish n goin to pass up tomorrow,we took dhe RISK to bring dhe work home..dhen i went to dhe office n hand in dhe two work dat i hv done..oni left wif another compre n 1 speech. haiya..lazy sia wan to do..after dat, shiiny dear follow me to my cca..coz she's in love wif our second original piece. lol. so yeah, she accompanied me but at 5 plus, she had to go off..dhen after skool ended, went home n lil sis had brought her frens home..blablabla..

bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 8:25 PM

didnt go to skool today coz wasn't feeling well..so yeah..went to polyclinic wif mummeh dhen mummeh say dat maybe on friday,we r going batam..so mummeh as me to change my passport picture..dhen..idk urhhh..went to eat hokkien mee =]
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at around 4..went back home n change to skool uniform coz i have to go for cca..dhen blablabla..cca ended..n went back home..im still tired sia..
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i had a dream last 2 days. n it was a really happy one which made me smile dhe whole day..but after awhile..when i tink back..i started crying..lyk shit sia..y muz god gimme such dreams when i noe dat it will nvr happen..it make me miss hym even more. for god sake. i love hym siia. dhe touch were so real.(dun be dirty minded) haishh..if oni i could get hym back..but i noe dat its IMPOSSIBLE.

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bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 10:32 PM

gaah..im so damn tired urhh..i woke up at around 2pm today..coz yesterday nite, while watching a horror movie alone at home, heard someone tryin to open dhe door n its 12am sharp..n WTH..it was mummeh,abah n lil siblings..dhen they were lyk, "shaa, cepat..kiter nak pagi hospital!"..i was lyk damn confues urhh..dhen ask mummeh wat happen..she say dat mak besar esah..dat is my aunt was sick n was admitted to dhe hospital again..so i quickly change n uncle harris was under dhe block wif meera's family..so off we go wif uncle's van..when we reached...mak besar esah children n grandchildren were already there except for kak rozie coz she's still on her way to dhe hosp as she stays in malaysia..dhen blablabla..got to noe dat makbesar is in coma..dhen when kak rozie reach, she was dhe one hu cries lyk mad woman..seriously..its damn sad urhh..but abg yazid irritating sia..still can make joke..wth?..
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dhenn..around 2 am..they say dat makbesar esah has regain conciousness..dhen waited n waited n waited..till 4 am i guess..by dat tyme i was damn tired sia..fuhh..i was sitting alone on dhe floor coz i lazy wan to tok to anybody..dhen kak shikin came n sit beside me.."eyh shaa..anti social oredi ahh?" i was lyk..huh? lol..dhen nak taknak..i tok to her lor..dhen when goes away..suddenly there is tis indian lady..sit on dhe chair in front of me n suddenly lie down..haiyo..dhen i sit near shabana..dhen change place, n sit beside kak isha..dhen kak isha rest her head on my shoulder..adoi..lagy penat siot..dhen meera n dira came infront of us n sit..meera ask if we wan to play 7 up..lol..so yeah..played for a while dhen dhe nurse says dat we go n visit makbesar oredi..so yeah..blablabla...at 5 plus uncle send us home..half dead oredi sia..dhen reach home around 5.40 i guess..n went straight to bed..dhen mummeh kip on calling me to wash my legs n change clothes..but i ignored n went off to lalaland...
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so yeah..shall stop hereeeee..n yeahhhh..guess wad..i hurt another part of my body today..gaah! blood kips on flowing evryday siaa..dhen dhe part of dhe hand which kena dhe hot oil ysterday was super painful till today sia..n today,dhe skin turn black n its becoming more n more painful..damn it!
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You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know
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Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

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bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 6:55 PM

saturdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..haiyaa..dunno how to start..niways...yesterday abah finally use my lappy..i tot dat he will nvr use mine wat..:P dhen he ask me how to download videos from dhe website dat he want..dhen i explain stuff wif hym urhh..dhen he say once dhe video goes in hys fon..it became blank..dhen i ask hym wad video he download..dhen he say,"ader la..abah nyer barang.." dhen i was lyk..hmm..ok ahh..i explain again n he try again..dhen still cannot..dhen skali he call me in dhe room n show me a video n ask me how to put in..wakakakaaaa...i laugh n laugh siaaa.coz its pornstuff...wth?? abahhh??? hahahas...no dad would show dat to hys children..hahahas..dhen i blank..i oso dunno how to download coz i dunno wad dhe website n evrytink was different..hahas..
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n hell ya..yesterdae night..i got myslf hurt AGAIN!! blood kip on flowing out..damn it..i had 4 plasters on body oredi sia..dhen tis morning oso i got hurt..my hand kena hot oil..n its damn painful i tell u..hate being hurt siaaa..gaahh..aiishaa is soooo careless!!!
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im now at home wif nyai..dhe rest of dhe family members went to dira house..mummeh n abah force me to follow but i dunno..its as if im invisible there..haiya..nobody noes how it feels..living in a condo is so damn boring..prefer HDB flats sia..cannot make noise..cannot do tis..cannot do dat...wateva..mummeh kept askin y i dun wanna follow..of coz there's other reasons. wateva urhh...im damn annoyed when i remembered bout dhe incident. blaaahhh~!
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I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
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What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
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It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

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bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 6:50 PM

FRIDAY,FRIDAY,FRIDAY!DHE BESTEST FRIDAY EVER!! lol..idk..its juz dat today is so stress free..even for geog..wakaka...i love mrs faith tan today :D oni today:P she's being so nice to me..today oni :P hahas..dhennn recess tyme, eat wif sonnie(dubay, i will call u dat from now on :D hahas..got a new name oredi for u..weee~!) n ya..i forgot to tell..shiiny dear n 'partner' was absent. lalalalala~! dhen came to noe dat 'partner' msg a lot of ppl to ask me if we r going soccer..n i said no..weeee~! dhen she ask y..i say dat my dad is at home...dhen she nvr eply..up to her urhh..so yeahh...read annie n seffie story juz now..they wanna ryte up a book..hope dat it could be publish...but it still has a long way to go..niways guys..dhe story is nice..kip it up :Ddhennn...had a hug from meclare(mary clare) lol..aiisha is always changing ppl's name. n ya..i forgotten dat she had her leg injured, dhen we 'fight' for dhe water cooler..i noe..its damn childish. hahas..dhen i accidentally push her leg..dhen she shout in pain..i forgot evrytink bout her leg sia..hahas..luckily she's ok..dhen as a 'gd' gurlfren, i let her drink ferst.heee..
mark chan is not in for maths. coz he is dhe teacher in charge for band. n band is off to syf today..aniways..indian dance got GOLD WIF HONOURS! damn shock..but yeah.. dhe ferst tyme in history of SJC, we got GWH for SYF. congrats gurls. despite sandhiya having a sprain ankle..hmm..n i felt damn excited for my SYF.. it will be on dhe 22nd April..y so long siaaa...cant wait to perform..we r so ready man..juz nid to brush up on dhe sec 1s...other dhen dat, its perfect. i wont say dat we can get GWH or even gold..but we have improve alot.. lyk damn alot urhhh... so other skools,better watch out coz SJC is coming ur way. angklung n kulintang ensemble rawks a lot sia..ppl hu dun noe bout it oni dhen they will say dat its boring. u ppl come for dhe practice n see how much fun we could get. serious. traine hard n u will see how beautiful dhe music will be. so yeahh..gonna perform 2 songs..our ferst song would be 'penasaran' an old tyme hits by kris dayanti but we had make a new arrangements for it. so it sounds better wif all dhe new percussions. it was superb mann..dhen our second song. it was our own original song. n i was damn speechless when i heard dhe end product. serious. if ' penasaran' was superb..dhe second song or we call it as 'bahana satwa' its damn damn superb. it can make u be in a different land n can imagine things around u. basicly its to show our technics. n yeah. its gonna be hard on ppl hu dun even noe how dhe technics were. ppl say dat its easy to play it. but dhe truth is...its not okeh. its quite stressful n nid lots of understanding n of coz TECHNICS! lol. bbl mcm pro. hahas..of coz laa..been it dhe group for more dhen 4 yrs marhh...must support dhe cca all dhe way. but yeah.. becoz of new ppl hu came in n really made most of dhe seniors bad mood..but wad to say..up to them..we can be enemies but in cca we r 'fren'..ya rite. hahas..i nvr show faces lorr..its them..dhe act smart gurl. n got to noe dat 90% she's going to be our new president. n most of us r shock. n they r going on a riot if she become. hahas..i dunno la they all..im going off oredi after syf. but i dun wan other of my cca mates being tortured. haiyaaaa...niwaysssss..AKE all dhe wayyy!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!
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aniways..nowadays i kip getting hurt..lyk really hurt..as in dhe blood came out..hahas...i kip on breaking glasses sia..dhen confirm dhe thing will stuck to my body dhen blood came out. alot of tymes sia..while i was on my way to dhe library..i broke a mirror..n my hand kena dhe glass..dhen its bleeding till now..damn itt...n yeah..im now in compasspoint library n saw regina n Ah Hua (wei hua)...hahas..k la...gtg..i guess dhe aircon in dhe library is tooo cold..im freezing siaa...can somebody make dhe temperature higher pleaseeeeee!!!!
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I bet you that I could read your mind
And tell you everything you're going through
Baby, I could try to find a thousand reasons why
You're alone and acting so cold
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Tell me how long you've been this way
Maybe I can open up your heart
See, I've been waiting all my life for someone just like you
And I know you've been waiting too
For someone to love you

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bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 4:58 PM

well today,evrytink was ok i guess..love makin annie(anne) n seffie(serafina) feel so irritated :P miss disturbing them..esp annie..hee..so yeah..had PE but i didnt run..instead,in dhe gym,i turn on dhe very big n windy fan to my direction n i lie on dhe floor..hahas..sonia darlink n shiny dear's faces r so red coz i dunno how many rounds they run around dhe gym as they nid to practice for NAPFA test. :D dhen ive got a chance to tok to shajeetha..dhen new gurl hu juz enter my skool tis yr...i heard dat she was from coral sec..so yeah..as per normal..dhe most frenly aiisha went to approach her :P hehe..i frenly wattt..ppl i dunno oso i say hello..hee..dhen i ask her wat skool was she from..dhen i was quite surprise..coz she's not from CORAL sec...but she was from NORTHLAND sec. hahas..small world...i started toking to her after dat..suddenly she mention shark's (sakthivel) name. hahas..i tot she older dhen me or wat..skali she's dhe same age as us..she's in 4 express last yr..dhen she was not hapy wif her results..so decided to retake O level in my skool..so yeah..tok bout many things urhh..some shocking news n stuff...wateva..once u tok wif aiisha..it will nvr end..especially when she is in gd mood..niways...i cant run for PE animore coz suddenly i feel dat my shorts r TOO BIG! serious..it kip on falling off..hahas..ppl will laugh seeing me running holding my shorts..heeee...lazy to buy new shorts urhh...okehh...so there's tis fren of mine..which ppl call her as my 'twin' coz she look lyk me..watevaaaa...ya..she is in sec 2 tis yr..she told me dat she wanna bake cookies for me n wanna pass it to me today =] weeee~! i dunno y she wanna make for me..hahas..org dah nak kasi tu..amek jer la..:P so yeah..nice2..i loike..shared it wif other peepz..hahas...they took alot lorr...but its ok..aiisha is not angry..gee..
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after skool there maths CT..n its super farking hard..it was dhe ferst tyme aiisha cant solve simultaneous equation..its lyk..omg..dhe easiest chapter ever!! i tried a lot of tymes sia..lyk more dhen 10 tymes until dhe paper was damn messy sia..but still cant find dhe answer..tried to subtitute,tried to eliminate..still cannot..damn it..dhen dhe venn diagram juz now..i oni now how to do dhe ferst qn n leave dhe other qns blank! gaah! dhen dhe worst part...dhe triangle..my favourite topic..one of dhe easiest..sad to say, i cant even ans one of it juz now..n there's 4 qns on it i guess...dhen 1 qn is about 6 MARKS!! 6 x 4 = 24..so 24 marks gone..n there..i guarentee i fail my paper coz its 50 marks. so yeah..haishhh..evrybody say dat it was hard..even dhe 'genius' say so..so yeah...today i went back home wif Ah Lau (joey)..hahas..ferst tyme going home wif her lorr..dhen she say from now onwards.evry thursday she will sent me back home..coz from monday to wednesday, i have cc..dhen on friday she have her cca..so yeah..oni left wif thursday :D tanx Ah Lau!! love euu many2 :D
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niways..i guess my lyfe is always about problems..when 1 problem is over, another 1 came by..but infact its 2 problems coming by..DAMN IT!!ferstly,its about shiiny dear's bro..haishhh..been worried for her these days coz..haiya..shall not tell it her..quite cofidential..but seriously, its a very serious prob..
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p/s:peepz hu have been for me all tis while i thank u all alot..esp my shiny dear, sonia darlink, my mellin(marrilyne), annie (anne) , seffie(serafina) , ZhouZhou(rachel z.) , n all dhe others hu ive not mention. u all have always make me stronger n help me in cheering me up evryday..tanx ferr dhe concern. i do appreciate it loads. :D

bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 9:06 PM

harlow peepzzz!!yeahh..im back..i've started a new chapter of lyfe..up to people wat they tink bout me n i dun care. i dun giv a damn shit man..serious.. it had made me to be a stronger person..niways..im not at mummeh's workplace..dat is dhe compasspoint library..was bored at home urhh..dats y..n im craving for hokkien mee AGAIN! yes i did. lol.. hope dat mummeh treat me hokkien mee after work. weee~!i had made my decision since morning.. i wanna start anew n forget bout dhe past.. juz hope dat i wont breakdown easily..actually..i went 'missing' not only because of hym..but also for other reasons..theres so many probs ppl..i juz cant handle it.so many things happen..all in one shot. i tink for dhe past two weeks..ive suffered enough. i hate dhe most painful heartbreak ever,had dhe most shocking news ever, had dhe unexpected person n more urh.so yeah..ive decided to move on..coz ive cae to tink dat goin 'missing' is not dhe proper way. only a COWARD will go missing wifout any news. i realised dat by crying day n night for dearest wont change anitink. n yeah. if it happens to come back again to me while im still 'missing'..i dun tink he came back becoz he lurve me.. maybe he came back because of sympathy n felt guilty coz he have made me feel tis way. i guess..i will juz surrender these things to god. coz i cant change hys feelings. lyk wat ive said..i dun wanna make dhe situation worst. so now im a happy kid man..n i miss being happy. i miss dhe smile i put on my face evryday. i miss my laughters. n my frens do miss 'aiisha lurhhh'..until they kept on asking if im ok or not..n rachel zhou keep saying,"aiisha lurhhh..smile laa...u ok or not..i wan my aiisha LURHH backk!!" lol..she will shout to my face in a hysterical manner but i juz say dat im ok n walk away. sonia darling also notice it. she kept on asking me to smile. Sonia darling, dun worry bout me any more kays..u r dhe ferst person hu saw me smile juz now :D happy oredi?? heee..dhen shiiny dear dun really notice dhe changes coz i dun wanna make her worry. i juz act as if there's notink happen. i lurve her. she had so many probs oredi, i dun wan her to be more urden becoz of me.. so yeah..dearest, if u r reading tis..im sorry for evrytink. lets start a new. forget dhe past. i will always be here.
next, diana had left on monday. lonely again since monday night. hmm..niways she ask me to upload her picts in my blog..dat gurl ahhh...extra oni :P hahas..
actually there's so much to say..but im lazy..in school..funnegh things happen today as it is april fool..we decided to do tricks on teachers..teehee..n im always dhe spoiler..weeeee~! sorry guys..actually not always wat..sometyms oni wat...:P
aniways.im quite dissapointed over tings but i tink..i better tell tmrw..so yeah..i gtg...sonia darling..tanx ferr dhe lecture..hahas..really appreciate it..wanna make me cry but suddenly i tot of sumone n it made me laugh..hmmz...k lurh..mummeh finishing work soon...weeeeeeeeeeee~! I MISS ALL OF U LOADS TOO OKEHHHH !!!!!!!

bby,im in lurve wif eu♥ 8:38 PM