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yesterday while resting..i suddenly tot of 'atok'..he's juz a fren of mine..kk..hys name is issalli..i msg hym coz it has been 2 days he didnt msg me..n hahas..u now y he didnt msg me? its becoz of dat day in dhe chalet..he kip on msging me when im damn buzy playing captain's ball n he got angry when i didnt reply hys msges..so at night..i tried to call hym to say sorry..but instead,hys fren picked up dhe fon..n i got very angry..its lyk wth urhh..if u dun wanna tok to me..u dun nid to ask ur fren to pick up n talk to me..so i put down dhe fon n he tried calling me but i reject...dhen he msg me saying dunno wt urh..dhen i juz reply 'k' n i got no reply after dat..so now..when i ask y he nvr msg me these days..he say dat he scared if im still angry wif hym n wait for me to cool down first..heee..padehal i can be angry for a few minutes oni..so he kip on asking me if he could call me..first few tymes i juz told hym dat i dun wan..but after awhile..pity nyer pasal i let hym call me..dat tyme it was at 1 am..so we talk n talk..it was fun tokin to hym..yeah yeah yeahh..wateva..made me wanna fall in love again but i kip back all those feelings..dunno y urhh but my mind juz kip on saying no..there's so much to share about..he told me evrybits of hym...he love making jokes..he can still make me laugh even its not funneh..lol..tok n tok until dhe batt low..dhn i charge n continue tokin..from lying on dhe bed till lying on dhe floor..from 1 am till 6.45am..wad dhe hell im doiing man..ppl would tink dat we r crazy but..hell yeah..we tok for dat long...n hys mum kip on intefering..hahas..so we had to put dhe fon down n go to skool..so went to bathe n pack things for skool..he kept on saying dat he lurve me..n he was wondering y i didnt reply.."aiisha tak syg issalli eh? issalli ckp i love u tapy aiisha tk pernah jwb..naper eyhh?is it becoz u still dun trust me??im serious bout tis okehh.."..n i juz went mute..i cant make myself to say anitink..

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n today we have AESTHETICS NIGHT..dhe last performance before we graduate..during matinee..seriously..it sucks to dhe core..mariam became our conductor for dat day as lyk wad dhe teacher's say..we dun have enuff budget to ask mr ali to conduct as we nid to pay hym $70 for 1hr..so yeahh..we screwed up..evrybody screwed up..we play evrytink rong..wth? dhe worst performance ever..after dhe performance..mariam cried..dhe seniors cried..haishh..fuck urhh..dhen we went back at dhe dressing room n mrs lim was lyk kip on scolding us..tis is far worst dhen SYF sia..dhen after dat we had our finale n went back to dhe dressing room..dhe seniors try to cheer up dhe other members n try to stop mariam from crying...its not dhe end kays..theres still dhe actual night show..show them wat we've got mann..serious..dat was dhe first tyme i saw angklung n kulintang ensemble unite as one..im damn serious..n dat make me cry again..coz im so going to miss dhem..im so going to miss my dearest kulintang..hurrhurr..after dat..we r all ready for dhe actual show..actually dhe 'kulintang members' have planned sumtink way before aesthetics night which dhe others dunno..serious...so all dhe kulintang members was damn excited coz we oredi noe wads goin to happen for dhe finale show..of coz dhe seniors wants dhe best for dhe last show..we r better dhen SIGLAP sec..dhen mira say, "if u all cannot smile or shy to smile..juz imagine my face n u all will smile.." *puke* hahahas..aper sajer si india tu..so its our tyme..evrybody set up evrytink oredi..n dhe angklung ppl were surprise to see dat mariam was wif her angklung n standing at her SYF position..i tink dhe angklung members will be wondering hu will be conducting..n there were 5 seconds of silence..we heard sumone shout sumtink at us..n suddenly there was MR Ali walking up dhe stage n dhe angklung ppl were damn shock even dhe teachers we shocked dhen dhe angklung members start to cheer for mr ali on stage..i guess dhe audience would be wondering y we were cheering so badly for our conductor..me n mira smiled to each other as wat we planned has worked..n there suddenly evrybody smile..we felt dhe spirit ..we seriously do.. n i tell u..it was damn tremendous..IT WAS DHE BEST ANGKLUNG N KULINTANG PERFORMANCE EVER! yes it was..way much better dhenn SYF..dhe sign of satisfaction is there..right after dhe curtains were close..me,fatina,eeda n mira kip on jumping..n we've got dhe best applaud ever! dhe other cca didnt even get dat kind of applaud..when we reach dhe dressing room n close dhe door..evrybody shout at dhe top of their lungs..hugs r given to evrybody..imagine how happy we were..we even got to see ms alvina shout lyk mad woman..hahahs..we gonna miss all tis man..seriously..tanx to mr ali..it was all paid off man..all dhe plannings n stuff..woohoo..it was dhe most memorable day ever! we had dhe worst n dhe best performance at dhe same day..n ive got notes from dhe junior..so sweet of them..I LOVE ALL OF EU LOADs~!!! im so proud of them..n im proud of my cca..let wat ppl tink of my cca..they tot dat its juz a simple n boring thing? think it twice people. tc. n tanx to dhe junior coz u all finally move very nicely.. tanx alot.. =]

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